To be honest, I think alot of our fear comes from our society feeding us that we are at such a higher risk because of c-sections. We're not! Really and statistically, we have almost the same risk as ANY mom. There are even new studies that show that women who attempt VBAC after 3 or 4 c-sections don't have the insane high risk that they once thought.
Here's another way to think of it... The risk of rupture is what... 1.5% with a classical incision? The leaves 98.5% chance that you WON'T rupture. Look at the bigger number, not the percent they are throwing at you to 'prepare' you for the worst. You have a larger chance for success without rupture than you do at rupturing.
That's how I think of it. My risk went from .6% (1 c-section) to 1.2% (2 -csections). It's still completely and 100% worth it because the percentage of success without rupture is SO much higher. It's not even just a little bit higher, it blows it out of the water. You often hear the negatives of what you want to do... Even with your first baby. If you want a natural birth, you'll get natural birth horror stories. Seek out the positive, surround yourself with positive thoughts, stories and feelings. If they can't be positive, put your hand up and say 'I don't want to hear this. I appreciate that you want to share but unless your story is positive, i don't want to hear it.'. Be assertive and trust your body and your baby. This is what you're made to do... We are women, we are powerful and we are strong. I heard a saying once and I'm probably going to butcher it but I'll try to recall it... It was 'The secret is not that childbirth is painful, it is that women are strong.'. Tell yourself every day that you are strong, your baby is strong, envision your uterus being solid.
PM me off board and I can send you a copy of my pregnancy afirmations (I'm doing hypnobabies). I think it would be helpful for you to regain trust and confidence in your body!
Sorry OP to hijack...

Congrats again on your amazing birth!