Just looking for some support

[robinchap1]

I'm having a hard day. DS is recovering from pneumonia. He is at that stage where he is feeling a lot better (thank goodness!), but still coughing and gets tired out easily but wants to act like he's all better. I am feeling really crummy today, like I'm coming down with something, whole body aches, etc. House is a MESS. I have tons of work to do and bills to sort through. So behind in all that stuff and I feel like I can't face it. The only time I really have to face it is after DS goes to bed... and I am always too tired.
I'm feeling really sad, lonely and on my own. But not feeling like I can reach out right now for company. Plus, I don't think DS is quite healthy enough for playdates with other kids yet.

I am really sad about my break up today. My 1st relationship post divorce ended just before Xmas. I really miss him and just feel so sad.

Plus XH is starting to be difficult again after a brief hiatus.

Between feeling sick and feeling sad and feeling overwhelmed... I'm having trouble planning our day... engaging in activities and keeping DS entertained and happy.

Mostly I've been able to manage the sadness... but sometimes it feels so endless....

Thanks for listening.

[Holland73]

Our sadness and heartbreak always comes back full force when we are in moments of stress, tiredness and at our weakest. Be gentle with yourself.

I just recently read a wonderful new book by one of my favorite authors, Susan Piver. It is called: Wisdom of a Broken Heart.

You can watch her talk about the book here:

http://www.susanpiver.com/wordpress/...-broken-heart/

It is really good and, even though, I am 3+ months out of my relationship and feelings OK... I still found a lot of what she wrote to be useful.

[meandmine]

Awe these patches are tough going, I know.

Been through several. They are periodic and totally rational -- you are dealing with a sick and demanding babe, overwhelmed by the stuff of life and dealing with X and grief over lost love.

Deep breaths, enough sleep and time ... hugs from here, too!

M

[robinchap1]

Oh Mamas, thank you so much. I really needed some hugs and support from those who get it.
And I am going to get that book, Holland. Thank you so much for the recommendation.

I might be back tomorrow. I had been gradually doing better over the last month or so. Now I'm feeling right back where I started, though I don't know why. Hopefully it is just temporary.