Nursing one at a time is always more of a pleasure for me. The early days for us were pumping and tube feeding and trying to keep track of weight gain and frequency of feeds. I worked really hard to get it going and by the grace of God it did....so that any time it was a bum to be nursing I would think how lucky we were and that nursing changes as they get older.
The memories of an older child nursing are NOT like newborn days etc....now I have the love hate relationship still going, but it's so precious to have been able to choose to keep on iyswim.
I really have needed more time out with the twins than with my singletons though. Just taking a walk/ drive on my own for 30 mins sometimes, even from the early days helped.
Can you pin point more specifically what bothers you? Does it make a difference if you 'choose' to nurse when you are ready rather than feeling 'demanded'? It's ok to take some deep breaths, tell them you'll just be a minute, get some water whilst they shriek in the background
and then tell them 'okay, mama's ready now'.......
I think somehow creating space
is important with such an overwhelming, all-encompassing job. Give yourself rewards for it, distract yourself (why I ended up on the computer so much
) Find ways to take the pressure off psychologically iyswim. It can be so weird switching between two nursling styles!! But every child has a different style.
Equally I have moments of absolutely relishing nursing like I did with (some of
) my singletons. So I do believe it will get easier for you as you settle into discovering each child's personality.