We went in for our u/s the other day at 30 wks and after the sonographer took all the measurements the peri came in to tell us that she has some concerns. First she tells us that both kids bellies are measuring smaller than their gestational age: baby A is a week or so behind and baby B is about 3 weeks behind. The babies are on the small side, A is 2lb 12oz and B is 2lb 9oz, and she’s concerned that the kids are not getting adequate nutrition. She had the sonographer do a doppler and I forget what she said but something she saw in baby B’s heart rate makes her think the placenta might not be functioning optimally.
Then she said my cervix has shortened to 1.85 and she wanted to do a NST to see what’s happening with contrax. I had about 4 or 5 contrax during the NST but the babies didn’t seem to mind or respond to them at all. She didn’t put me on bed rest per se but she told me to take it easy, no more walking, yoga, lifting heavy stuff, I have to stay off my feet etc., and she wants me to come in for twice weekly monitoring.
DH and I decided that it would be best for me to stop doing stuff around the house and spend the next few days until my next dr. appt. on bed rest to see if my cervix starts to lengthen again and to see if I’ve been a calorie hog all this time and my lack of activity might help them bulk up. I’m bummed and I’m pissed. I guess I just took for granted that everything was happening in a healthy way and that my body was making two people and I felt good no real aches or pains; nothing really to complain about but a little heartburn. Now I feel like my body is falling down on the job of nurturing and providing for these two babies who are completely relying on me for everything.
I’ve been so concerned with being able to have a natural/drug free delivery that I never once considered the fact that I might deliver too early or that these kids might not be big or healthy enough. Now I don’t give a shit about “my” labor I just want to make it to at least 36 weeks and grow these kids to 6 lbs. a piece.
Sorry for the novel, I guess I just needed to vent A LOT.
Then she said my cervix has shortened to 1.85 and she wanted to do a NST to see what’s happening with contrax. I had about 4 or 5 contrax during the NST but the babies didn’t seem to mind or respond to them at all. She didn’t put me on bed rest per se but she told me to take it easy, no more walking, yoga, lifting heavy stuff, I have to stay off my feet etc., and she wants me to come in for twice weekly monitoring.
DH and I decided that it would be best for me to stop doing stuff around the house and spend the next few days until my next dr. appt. on bed rest to see if my cervix starts to lengthen again and to see if I’ve been a calorie hog all this time and my lack of activity might help them bulk up. I’m bummed and I’m pissed. I guess I just took for granted that everything was happening in a healthy way and that my body was making two people and I felt good no real aches or pains; nothing really to complain about but a little heartburn. Now I feel like my body is falling down on the job of nurturing and providing for these two babies who are completely relying on me for everything.
I’ve been so concerned with being able to have a natural/drug free delivery that I never once considered the fact that I might deliver too early or that these kids might not be big or healthy enough. Now I don’t give a shit about “my” labor I just want to make it to at least 36 weeks and grow these kids to 6 lbs. a piece.
Sorry for the novel, I guess I just needed to vent A LOT.
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