I am also working. We submit our schedule requests 2 months in advance and I have had pneumonia for 6 weeks, missed a lot of work plus it has been slow this year so I have only worked half my regular shifts. When I put my request in I was like PLEASE LET ME WORK anything anything!!!! And of course weekends are hard to staff.
Purim is like my favorite holiday (I just like to drink, and I am an introvert so I get to be a little bananas under the comfortable umbrella of my community for a couple days, if that makes sense). I work the 27th AND the 28th!!! I will still go and listen to the megillah sat. night. I need my kids to at least hear it read once. But I can't dedicate all the time to it. My boyfriend is sad and is frustrated I didn't plan better. We love our rav and the community we have here, small as it is. So I will participate a little one night. I am so tired, from being sick and catching up on work, and broke, I think I will wear an old costume. A sexy red wig with devil horns. Not sure about the clothing yet. It is a very orthodox crowd.
Now I need to think of a few cute baskets. I am so happy I have time. I am hoping I can make it fun with my kids and boyfriend coming up with ideas and the possible baking, assembly, and delivery. I still haven't asked him if he wants to come over and do this with us. We are both really observant but like almost opposite. He will turn a light on at my house on shabbat, or forget I have pre-torn TP and tear some, but then when I take a sip of water during a fast (yom kippur) he gasps! But his version of kosher is he will order mcdonalds food as long as his burger has no cheese!!!
We are always, not bickering, but trying to elevate one another. We plan to marry but I want to make sure he will start to be stronger first. Maybe he thinks the same of me.
Not happening. I am working shabbos. Well, I work at the hospital saturday. I hate doing it. Usually I am pretty good about scheduling, but it has been a hard year. Very hard. I got 2 months behind in bills and it is effecting my credit and everything.
I keep every minute
I can when I get in this position. I have a beautiful beginning, friday night candle lightings and blessings and every mitzvot I can until the last second I have to leave for work. Even at work, I do everything in my power to observe whatever I can. I feel like I am defending myself, but sometimes I gotta do what I gotta do.
Every moment I am observing shabbat, it is still, such a gift. When I open my eyes and take that first breath after my candles have been lit and my bracha (brachot!!) has been said I feel transported, like to a secret getaway, a most relaxing vacation. Another world. And all who are observing with me are on this major love trip, acid trip without the acid. LOL.
I owe my Yemenite friend jachnun this shabbat or next. Or next, or next. The first schedule I get back to normal I will do it.
Wowza, I am
I'm just sad I am missing most of my fave day this year.