But, I don't, apparently, because I'm stuck in the am I or aren't I thing right now, and it's made it so that I've barely slept. 
I tried so hard to sleep, but it just wasn't happening. I've been having on and off "surges" that are like strong BH, but still not painful. I was COLD an hour or two ago, and DH said that it wasn't cold in the house at all...when I was in labor with DS2 I had the chills the whole time, so that made me think of his labor...*TMI alert* I also started having some feelings of intestinal activity, and with both boys, my system cleared out at the beginning of labor, so that's always a big one for me...thankfully, when I finally did go to the bathroom, it was nothing too crazy.
I most likely slept through early labor with DS1 (I woke up in way-hard, active labor), and I got about twenty minutes of it with DS2, so I guess that's why I'm really not sure what early labor feels like...
I started having a panic attack a couple of hours ago. I don't know why, but I seem to be really scared about having this baby. It makes no sense! I have had two great births, two healthy kids, we're planning a fantastic homebirth...maybe just because I was really tired (still am!), and I still have some things to check off of my to-do list?
My EDD is Monday, and I'm hoping to get at least that far, but I'm starting to feel like that isn't going to happen. The dates with this pg are really weird, because I had a m/c and then got pg right away, with no period, so we had to use my m/c date as an LMP date. For that reason, I've been expecting the baby to come late (and my other two were each born at 40w4d, according to my LMP). Now I'm starting to second-guess that. Gah!
Okay, I just needed to get that out. I'm going to try to get some sleep now!
I tried so hard to sleep, but it just wasn't happening. I've been having on and off "surges" that are like strong BH, but still not painful. I was COLD an hour or two ago, and DH said that it wasn't cold in the house at all...when I was in labor with DS2 I had the chills the whole time, so that made me think of his labor...*TMI alert* I also started having some feelings of intestinal activity, and with both boys, my system cleared out at the beginning of labor, so that's always a big one for me...thankfully, when I finally did go to the bathroom, it was nothing too crazy.I most likely slept through early labor with DS1 (I woke up in way-hard, active labor), and I got about twenty minutes of it with DS2, so I guess that's why I'm really not sure what early labor feels like...
I started having a panic attack a couple of hours ago. I don't know why, but I seem to be really scared about having this baby. It makes no sense! I have had two great births, two healthy kids, we're planning a fantastic homebirth...maybe just because I was really tired (still am!), and I still have some things to check off of my to-do list?
My EDD is Monday, and I'm hoping to get at least that far, but I'm starting to feel like that isn't going to happen. The dates with this pg are really weird, because I had a m/c and then got pg right away, with no period, so we had to use my m/c date as an LMP date. For that reason, I've been expecting the baby to come late (and my other two were each born at 40w4d, according to my LMP). Now I'm starting to second-guess that. Gah!
Okay, I just needed to get that out. I'm going to try to get some sleep now!
I have been there...I hope things work out as you are hoping.
I've been focusing on 2Tim 1:7 throughout this pregnancy--it was my mantra during my last birth and it really helped me. But I realized several days ago that it isn't enough to read or remember the words if I'm not taking them to heart! 
I thought about it all day yesterday, and I read it and a few others last night before bed, as I was getting kind of anxious again. Then I prayed, and I slept great, without any stress or anxiety. Whoohoo! I typed up a list of scriptures, and I laminated them so that I can read them between contractions when I'm in the tub. This one is at the top of the list!
