Oh Suzannah~ what an unbearable shock. I am so very sorry you are carrying this sadness and disappointmant and grief. We know how very badly this Baby was/is wanted.
I pray you find moments of peace in the coming days, weeks. months and beyond.
Please be gentle with yourself and if you feel like you want to share, need to share~ the mamas over on the pregnancy and infant loss board are amazing and may help to hold you...
I am so, so sorry. I wish I could hug you in real life.
I wish you and your dh peace.