So, I about lost it this morning. I am feeling so overwhelmed with working, trying to keep milk supply up, pumping milk, fretting about day care, worrying about SIDS, trying to get caught up with work when I get home, and really just wanting to take a month or so and just do nothing. My partner went to midnight shift for this calendar so we could try to trade off DD as we didn't know if we could get day care so he's always exhausted and grouchy when Im' around him, but still wants to bug me for sex. And I'm tired of him saying i look great when I feel like a frumpy, leaky, neurotic mess. Can't he see that? Makes me really pissed off. This morning I woke up in a good mood as I got a reasonable amount of sleep (he's been bitching about DD sleeping with me even though he's not there - he's convinced I will smother her breast feedign) so I've moved her to her crib which is next to my bed. Anyway I was in a great mood, ready to finish getting ready, meet my girlfriend for breakfast before I went to work for a few hours, and he came home around 7:30 and was just bugging me for sex. Pissed me off. Ruined my morning. I used to have a high sex drive but now pretty much zero - I assume others are the same - i'm breastfeeding this time and didn't with DS so I'm not sure if hormones are at play, but I honestly just want to be left alone to try to get everything done. He feels "shut out" and I frankly don't care. I feel like I'm being a bitch but again, I really don't care. Anyone else just feeling ragged and like you have nothing left to give?
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2/20/10 at 6:12pm