40 weeks and 4 days-
I think I have just reached the point where I am ready to have the baby be born. I am a little scared of the unknowns of giving birth for the first time. And I still do love the feeling of the baby inside of me. But, I am so exhausted and kind of just at that point where I am ready to have the baby on the outside. It took a while for me to feel this way!
Yesterday I had this great burst of energy where I was not tired all day and stayed up till 1am doing major house cleaning. then today I am just so tired all day. I hope I feel well rested when I go into labor.
No significant signs yet- other than- increased elimination.
No mucus or contractions yet.
Got the birth tub set up today.
We still don't know if we will end up doing just me and dh or having the midwives there. The thing is, I don't really like the midwives that much

If I had great nurturing warm emotionally supportive midwives I think we would just have them there- at least some. But I find them quite cold and we have had some conflict- just because I expressed some feelings I was having about them not feeling supportive to me. Now we are all sort of extra polite to each other but there isn't a great natural ease between us. Oh well, I know nothing is perfect and we will have them if we need them. I would prefer if we end up with a great UC though- but having the mw's isn't that big a deal. I am open to however it works out to any extent that I may imagine or not. So weird that I am going to be giving birth for the first time any second or any day! And meeting my baby.
anyway- I have been saying for a while that I am happy to have the baby still in there, and I am. but I am pretty ready at this point for when he or she wants to be born. And just hoping for the best like everyone else. I am going to try my best to trust my body and let go and even enjoy the birth, if I can! though I do get scared sometimes as it is so unknown, other times I just get excited. And right now I am just tired!!