i have to agree with you about suburbia, kd. i find it really hard. i have loved living in very well chosen communities in a city, though even that takes time. i lived two blocks away from cedarmama for nearly 2 years before we even met at the park we both frequented!! the same thing is happening here in london. i hate to pick up and move my children, i was really blessed to live in the same villagey community for my whole life, just moving down the street. however, i also struggle with desires for countryside and a simpler life, versus just having a wonderful home in the city with a big enough garden and access to parkland to make up for it all - and all the cultural stuff in london is amazing for making up for it all! i went out to winchester, and hour's train ride out of london, and walked in beautiful places around the village this weekend, it was stunning. i could easily live in a village. i'm still disinclined to own a car, but the trains here are amazing, and there is some chance of finding a village on a london commuter route. the trick here, as there, is that the cost of communities that have easy access to the city can often make up the costs you'd save in leaving the city at all! it is also hard for me to give up having my partner home quickly and early from work. we have a funny thing that comes up as well, where sometimes he is off to cities all over europe for work, and doesn't even work in london for a few weeks at a time - but then we're paying to live here.
i would like the universe to send me some clear messages about where we should go in the next year. like lori i've been making pictures about what i want - but as you can see, i'm not sure!!
when i lived in deep cove i was more isolated from friends, and had to travel a lot to see them. my partner had less time with us, commuting. but we had a sense of that aaaaa, quiet, peaceful, and constant experience of natural beauty that i really crave. i do have a beautiful forest right here in london, just up the hill, but i'd love something wilder, and something of my own. i hear you, mariah, that you're laughing at all of your fears. however it sounds like you've found a good balance for your partner's work. that is what we need to find. i'm so happy with the teachers, classes, friends we have found, i hate to leave them after a year and a half of searching..so i need to be sure about where and why. if i weren't too far out of london i could potentially come in once a month or more often and see them...but these attachments are so valuable to me.
autumn, if i were you i would go for it, go and rent in the community you'd like to be in, and work your way towards buying some land in that area once you're sure you love it there. see? my easy decision for you. have one for me?