It's not silly. It's an understandable question!
I do feel that you will find communities within the community to be a part of. But quite honestly, it feels like it will always be somewhat of a struggle for you to feel like you fit in completely and are at home. Overall in general, I see you being comfortable there, but not necessarily like you would call it "home" in the sense of where your heart is.
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