Gonna be a rough week

[its_our_family]

I turn 31 on monday.

What would be my 9 anniversary is Wednesday.

The 1 year anniversary of my divorce is Thursday.

I'm feeling... overwhelmed. Last year I turned 30, had an anniversary. and got divorced. It did good. The difference is now there is no "excitement" of the divorce or the humor that we were technically married 8 years (which i thought was hilarious cause he wants to call it 7 but it was really 8! )

Anyway... it'll be interesting.

[lucysmom]

Sounds like a poignant time for you. Mixed emotions on a grand scale. Sometimes you just have to open your heart to the painful and the bittersweet and wait till that passes. I suppose you know that ...

[Theia]

I agree with Lucysmom, I have a month like that too. Let it come, and it will also go.

[its_our_family]

The boys were with him this morning at church and they got in the car saying "Daddy said we were wrong and your birthday is March 3!" I'm thinking "should I be hurt he forgot so fast??" then I changed it to "At least now we are divorced and he forgets and not married and he forgets. It hurts less now than it did before."

[Freedom~Mama]

Just wanted to give you a hug.

[vocalise]

Happy birthday! (Tomorrow)

That's pretty squished timing, for sure.

I just thought I'd share that sometimes on occasions like that, I light a candle for what was, however it may have turned out. Then, once I blow out the candle, it feels like I've sent it on its way.

[Theia]

I do that too Vocalize. Thanks for pointing that out so that others can do it too. It is really helpful to me.

[its_our_family]

That is a good idea!

Thanks for the hug

I'll get through it. I jsut dread it, ya know?

[PoppyMama]

Happy Birthday!

I'm so sorry it has to come in a painful time but I'm positive that as time goes on it will just be your birthday.

[its_our_family]

I'm actually ok. I have a HUGE blister in my mouth from stress... other than that I'm actually not upset. Weird.

My birthday was great... so that helped!

[josybear]

this is an intense week, i hope you have the time to be gentle with yourself and just feel the things you need to feel. grief and joy and relief and regret and a million other emotions are wrapped up in these occasions, and just feeling them is good for you.

[its_our_family]

This weekend is one without kids. So, I took friday off. I'm going to the gym, using the sauna, getting a haircut, meeting up with my kindergartner after lunch for some hugs, and then getting a new tattoo.

It'll be a good ending to the week.