~ The BSL Graduates and Stalking Thread - March/April ~ - Page 3

[lisko15]

Hi everyone....

Sorry I've been MIA for a few days. Something is up with my computer at home and it doesn't let me see the posts. I need to restart it or something. Obviously that's a problem if I can't SEE MDC!

Oh no... Jessica... I just noticed your post. I am so, so, so sorry. There isn't anything I can say to really help, so just know we are all thinking of you and your family. No one should go through three losses (or even one for that matter).

Sending you big cyberhugs and hopes that you have an easy next couple weeks.

[starkyld]

Jessica, I'm so, so sorry to hear it. I found out that I lost my podling at the ultrasound in 2008 and remember how devestated I felt. The sterile, uncomfortable radiology clinic felt so alien and wrong and horrible and I couldn't stop sobbing. I am so, so sorry and I will be thinking of you.

[LZP]

Oh No. Jessica. HUGE hugs to you. I am so so sorry. You do not deserve this.

Healing vibes to you and your family and much love.

[MaerynPearl]

I am so sorry Jessica... I remember being in your shoes very well... even if it happened 8 years ago. Its a horrible feeling I wish you a peaceful healing!

[Jelinifer]

I am so sorry Jessica

[Tear78]

oh, jessica. oh honey, my heart is breaking. This is so unfair!!! I'm sending you big support and hugs and love, and I know none of it will fix how you're feeling. I'm so sorry. Please take care of yourself.

[Pinoikoi]

Originally Posted by LZP

Pinoikoi, Jess, Lauren?

I'm here.. I have been sick too.. well, more than that I guess. I was trying to get quarter grades finished up.. so that was a focus. Then I have had a ton of appts.. I went to acupuncture, met a new naturopath (who I might keep as my general practitioner- and that says a lot since I usually avoid men in medicine), dentist for me, dentist for dp, and 4 pediatric dentist appts (only one had a cavity this time, though which is really good for us!)..

oh yeah, and the kids and I are on spring break, so we have been swimming, going to Tae Kwon Do, shopping (ie spending way more than we should...)..

Still, my nursery is done (except for a crib skirt I want that is still on backorder). I found an oak and PINK glider rocker on craigslist.. my sister has offered to buy my carseat (which I was having a heck of a time trying to find someone that would ship to me, so she is having one shipped to her so she can ship it to me).. ditto with stroller (but I eventually decided on a mia moda and found someone that would ship it to me for $50 which was way more reasonable than $158 I was quoted from someone else)..

but sick- yes.. stuffy nose, incessent cough, aches and pains.. sucks.

ETA: I am so sorry to hear your news Jessica.

[LZP]

Hi Girls,
I have an update. we are having a baby. yup. he or she would not show the goods. sitting on a foot, with an umbilical cord b/w the legs. WOULD.NOT.MOVE.
I am sad; and honestly, angry. we have a friend who is only 14 weeks and she is probably going to find out tomorrow. They didnt have a US scheduled, but when we said we were getting one done this weekend, they decided to schedule one and see what they could see. and I'm sure they'll find out.

I was looking forward to being able to bond with this baby, and now, it just feels like that's not going to happen. I needed a real person to identify with, to make this feel like a reality, that might not get ripped away. and now, it's just some "it" in there. I do not want to wait 22 more weeks to bond with my baby, and i just dont feel like this is possible now. i'm just heartbroken. I know it's so selfish, but I am.

I should be happy (and I am, don't get me wrong) that we have a seemingly healthy baby in there, that's measuring on track for dates. I dont know what all the little organs are supposed to look like, and i hope that if there's a problem they will tell me sooner than waiting 4 more weeks till my next appt. i think that would be wrong. It did seem like there was not a lot of fluid in there, like baby didnt have a lot of room to move around. maybe that's why I'm not feeling movement- bc he or she is not moving. Oh how I loathe the word "or" right now. I was SO excited for this weekend, to feel like we were moving forward, and now I just feel like a girl with a fat gut again.

[Tear78]

oh, Liz, hon, I can understand being disappointed! Sure you wanted to know the sex! After what you went through to get to this point, you are justified in wanting every feeling of forward movement. I don't understand though, why do you have to wait 22 more weeks. Couldn't you check again next visit? Am i showing my ignorance here? Either way, I hope you feel like you can bond with your little goy (birl?) without knowing. Hugs, mama!

afm, I'm BUSTING to share about my sister's appointment today (she's 11 weeks now), but I'll let her do that. Ok, but Carlyle, do it soon m'kay?

[MaerynPearl]

LZP I felt the same after my US with DD... buuuuuut it turned out that they couldnt find her kidneys either so they scheduled me another to find out! Maybe just maybe you will get that lucky as well! It did suck waiting until 23 weeks to find out I was having a girl when I could have known at 18 though...

and Tear - many women dont go to a doctor where they have an ultrasound machine available for use... I dont, for example, we have to schedule mine the next city over... so if the same thing were to happen to me again this time I would be completely out of luck (at LEAST until I go to the midwife and POSSIBLY get one from her as well but that would be after 30 weeks!)

[LZP]

thanks Tear and Mae for cheering me up! Mae, you're right. we see a midwife, so they dont have US stuff there. we have to go to an imaging center. and the US machine isnt that great there... just for measuring kidneys, hearts, etc....
aaaanywho, DH and I had discussed going to an "elective" US place if we didnt find out the gender. so I called tonight to see if I could set an appointment for this week... (I didnt want to lie and say that I was having pain or spotting or anything to get another US either... felt like it'd be a jinx) so aaanyway....
well, now dont I feel like a spoiled brat!! The radiologist was still there tonight when I called. So, we went in. we had a quick 3 minute US. and, our child was in a different position! and showed us the goods!!!
We're having a little girl! She is already costing us, and already, the "standard" stuff is not OK, apparently, she needed the "special" ultrasound.

I did make the promise in the car on the way to the place that if she showed us the goods, I'd not get any more US unless they were deemed absolutely medically necessary. HA!
so, there it is. I can sleep tonight!!!

[MaerynPearl]

Originally Posted by LZP

We're having a little girl! She is already costing us, and already, the "standard" stuff is not OK, apparently, she needed the "special" ultrasound.

lol warning ya... my daughter was the same (as I already mentioned) and is SOOOOOOO the same even now that she is almost 5!!! Not so much that she needs special treatment but that she will not do anything unless SHE is good and ready to do it!

[Tear78]

Originally Posted by LZP

We're having a little girl!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! How exciting!!! And look at you, mommy, already going above and beyond. Thanks for sharing! I'm seriously so giddy excited for you, lady!

[starkyld]

Congrats, LZP. I'm glad you got your answer.

I feel SO pregnant. Bagel's doing regular alien dance moves, I'm having Braxton-Hicks contractions, the way that I walk has totally changed, and I feel like this kid is ready to make a run for it. After walking for a few blocks, I feel like Bagel is clawing through my cervix and crying out, "Gravity! Freedom!"

If we can hang in there for six more weeks and nothing goes wrong, we can have our homebirth. Come on, Bagel. You can do it.

[lisko15]

LZP - Yeah... for getting to find out and finding out its a little girl! Little girls are fun... their clothes are fun... all their little girly toys are fun. (Their moods at times aren't so fun, but maybe you'll get a nice not-moody little girl :nana)

And I totally get being disappointed before. I really needed to know this time around too. My sister didn't want us to find out. But I really wanted to, so I could bond with this little guy, picture him somewhat, get his clothes ready, name him... it just makes it more real (at least for me).

I'm going to add you a little girly stork on the first page!

AFM - Received my first diaper stash! So cute... I just had to play with them and keep looking at them. Although fitted Kissaluvs and a Thirstee cover is really going to make for some fluffy booty!

I am so ready to know where we are going to LIVE so I can get the baby's room ready. We should know by the beginning of April (which isn't too far away), but its making me a bit frantic. We don't need to move... it just seems like a good opportunity to with the tax credit and so we can own rather than rent. However, it looks like the house we offered on a few weeks ago most likely won't work out. So now we need to find a new one. Its just a bit too much indecision while PG! I'm trying to be a good sport for DH... but sometimes I just want to whine and nag.

Hi to everyone else... and Carlyle - update, please?

[Tear78]

ok, kaBLOOIE!!! I can't hold it in, and she put in her sig, so it's fair game. Carlyle heard the heartbeat yesterday! YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! I'm so excited!

Lisko, I'm sorry the house fell through. I think I missed that you were looking to buy...now I'm intensely curious. lol...We bought our house six months before the new tax credit started. D'OH!!!!! Seriously, people? C'mon!

I'm off to look at my twin cutie follicles! I hope they both grew!

[Pinoikoi]

Originally Posted by Tear78

Lisko, I'm sorry the house fell through. I think I missed that you were looking to buy...now I'm intensely curious. lol...We bought our house six months before the new tax credit started. D'OH!!!!! Seriously, people? C'mon!

Yeah, we missed the tax credit thing by a couple of months.. and we built for over two years, so.. oh well we still got a super good deal for this area.

[Jelinifer]

Originally Posted by Tear78

ok, kaBLOOIE!!! I can't hold it in, and she put in her sig, so it's fair game. Carlyle heard the heartbeat yesterday! YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! I'm so excited!

Lisko, I'm sorry the house fell through. I think I missed that you were looking to buy...now I'm intensely curious. lol...We bought our house six months before the new tax credit started. D'OH!!!!! Seriously, people? C'mon!

I'm off to look at my twin cutie follicles! I hope they both grew!

Congrats to your sis!!! What awesome news

[YummyYumYumMama]

hey all, sorry i have no time for personals right now but i'm sort of in shock so i'll just post what i posted on the BSL TTC thread:

oh my god ladies. i'm in shock. the line on the $tree was a nice dark pink almost IMMEDIATELY, and i had saved the pee so i dipped a walgreens stick in it and it said "pregnant" within a minute. i took pics but i can't find my camera cable anywhere.

OH MY GOD. i didn't take vitex or maca, my acupuncture was focused more on stress and mental health than fertility, i ovulated day 25 with barely any fertile CM, and i really just had very few fertility signs. and NO SYMPTOMS. compare that to all the other cycles with perfect timing and supplementing and the symptoms... wtf? i guess we can't explain the mysteries of the universe.

i'm pretty much stunned/in disbelief because i just really, REALLY did not think this was our cycle. i'm due november 22nd. i guess i'll figure out prenatal care stuff later this week, but right now i am pregnant! it feels surreal to both me and DH. we're planning to go out to dinner tonight to the same restaurant we went to the night we found out i was pregnant with DD.

i just keep feeling like... HOLY CRAP IS THIS FOR REAL? the tests are out on the bathroom counter so every time i go in there i'm like, yup, this is real. i can't believe it, you guys... i just can't!

[Pinoikoi]

Originally Posted by YummyYumYumMama

oh my god ladies. i'm in shock. the line on the $tree was a nice dark pink almost IMMEDIATELY, and i had saved the pee so i dipped a walgreens stick in it and it said "pregnant" within a minute.