~*Bitter Sushi Ladies - MARCH*~ - Page 23

[enigo]

to everyone who needs them, and even those who don't

...Speaking of threads, does anyone want it for next month?

[lapis]

fierrbugg: that is great news about the nodule!! congrats! I'm sorry you are going to loose your house though. but seems like you have some good perspective on letting it go, getting rid of stuff and feeling all that much lighter. hugs though, I know its not an easy process even if you can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

tear I totally forgot you were on progesterone, so about all the hubbub... i hope of course that this is your month but we all be right there with you when you get your blood work done this morning. hugs

enigo: y-e-s!!

Q'bear: that's good news about having your lap moved up : ) creepy crawly but you'll get some good info!

[Tear78]

so...another snowy white bfn this morning on an internet cheapie, so I guess I know what this morning's blood test will show. It hasn't hit me hard yet. I wonder why? I guess that progesterone is strong stuff. sigh... Maybe I can consider the needle today a warm-up for the weeks to come.

[finnegansmom]

Tear, I'm sorry. BFNs suck, as do needles. Your baby will come to you, stay strong.

[lapis]

tear: ditto what finnegansmom said. hugs hugs hugs

[SimplyRochelle]

again Tear. This day bings you one day closer to your litle one no matter how the doctors visit goes. Sometimes that mantra is all that gets me through the day.

[Qbear'smama]

So I watched Julie and Julia last night and cried when Julia got the call that her sister was pregnant.

Thanks for your input, Tear. I don't think I have any questions at the moment, I'm just scared of what they will find (or if they find nothing?) and being under general anesthesia does not appeal very much. I'm a bit of a control freak so that's part of it...I am glad I am doing it sooner, less time to worry, as you said. Also I'll be able to get the info from the surgery to the fertility people (seeing them in May) and hopefully hit the ground running with whatever they decide to do.

And I hear ya on the BFNs, the stark white strip staring you in the face is the hardest thing... the ones at Christmas really hit me hard, I was on progesterone too and it tricked me into thinking I was really preg. Mae warned me not to fall for it if I used the progesterone, but I couldn't help it.

fierrbugg, I'm new here so don't know your history, but sounds good about the nodule, not so good about the house, but your attitude about it is amazing and attitude is everything. As they say, to make an omlette ya gotta break some eggs, this is the hard step to get you to a better place.

Happy Easter weekend, ladies!! (ok, apparently this is a hamster but it looks like a bunny!!)

[BelovedK]

Feeling a bit down ladies Since DH and I are actively working on a budget, things are tense, but it's not THAT bad, we are still very much in love and committed to each other I do get so angry sometimes though.

I have been having a pity party moment for myself. I know I will get a BFN this month, I feel pre af cramping, and I feel so left behind sometimes. Even though our TTC plans changed, I never really gave up the dream in some ways, and this month because of our mishap (at the most perfect time) I have had my hopes up again.

Sorry for the negativity, I really try to stay on the positive side. My salon will be closing the end of May and so far I don't have a job lined up. I am kinda scared. If I don't work, I lose my clients.

OK, back to the happy me now

[BelovedK]

I'm gonna add, I feel extremely weepy I know that's a sign. I cannot seem to stop tearing up. I hope this is not me= obsessing.

[fierrbugg]

Tear:

BelovedK: sending you and that you find a replacement salon to keep your clients and cash flowing in.

Lapis and Qbear'sMama: Thanks to both of you.

Nothing great or wonderful to report - from here. We spent the day w/ my mil. She and I have this you annoy me/ you stole my baby relationship - but try to get along. Dh's cousin showed up - she's the one who had her baby when she was 16 and named her one of our chosen names - funny how I was just talking about her yesterday - and mil says 'Well why don't you bring the baby in, they (meaning dh and I) want to see the baby.' Let me clarify that I had NO desire whatsoever to see this 18 y/o bring in her toddler w/ the name that dh wanted to name one of our babies. But of course that's just one of those things where you have to shut your mouth and endure. It sucked!!!! I don't get why mil insists on hurting dh and I so much - although I think she doesn't get that it's not just hurtful to me alone - but not having kids yet is just as painful for dh too. Idk if she's just oblivious or out and out mean (of course I think the latter, dh votes the former). This is why even when we are with her, I tune her out alot. Ugh.

to everyone who needs one this kinda sucky day.

[Tear78]

Sorry to get everybody worked up. sigh....cycle 22, here we go. Hello, needles.

[Jane]

Oh my god, Tear. F'that!

I was seriously hoping that, minus that cyst, that you were riduculously fertile, and would get pregnant merely from sharing a household with your husband. And you'd return to the BSL to benolently wish us low-fertility folks some baby dust while rubbing your big belly!

[Tear78]

Originally Posted by Apricot

Oh my god, Tear. F'that!

I was seriously hoping that, minus that cyst, that you were riduculously fertile, and would get pregnant merely from sharing a household with your husband. And you'd return to the BSL to benolently wish us low-fertility folks some baby dust while rubbing your big belly!

me too...minus the gloating part. Thanks for hoping for me. I still hope I'm ridiculous fertile minus the cyst, just not first try ridiculous. Maybe just iculous. Now all you ladies go beat me to it! I'm right behind you!

[millefleur]

Originally Posted by Tear78

We'll miss you, hon! I hope the break does you good! I know it did for me.

Originally Posted by lapis

millefleur: enjoy your month off. i did the same for the months of december and january and it was really really nice to take a break... we'll miss you though : )

Thank you! I already miss all of you guys! I may have to lurk just a teensy bit .

[lapis]

hey ladies,
i just realized that when enigo asked if anyone wanted to be the thread keeper for april, it looks like I said y-e-s! I think I was responding to her EWCM but my answer showed up right after she posted about the new thread.... anyhow i actually am happy to do it, just not really sure how? do i just cut and copy the first page w/ all the info on it to a new first page of a new thread? if someone lets me know I'll do it...

tear: sorry about af. hugs

fierrbugg: i totally understand. we know three people having babies at the end of may. THREE. dh's co worker's girlfriend. his boss' wife and his best friends wife. and its rough on both of us. sheesh, i hope nobody steels our names!

and rochelle: i like what you said to tear about these hard days bringing us one day closer to our little ones. we do all need to remember that i suppose.

anyhow... if someone lets me know how to start the new thread i'll do it

[enigo]

Originally Posted by lapis

hey ladies,
i just realized that when enigo asked if anyone wanted to be the thread keeper for april, it looks like I said y-e-s! I think I was responding to her EWCM but my answer showed up right after she posted about the new thread.... anyhow i actually am happy to do it, just not really sure how? do i just cut and copy the first page w/ all the info on it to a new first page of a new thread? if someone lets me know I'll do it...

anyhow... if someone lets me know how to start the new thread i'll do it

Lapis Yep, just copy the first page and paste it into a new post. It's easier if you open two windows. If there is anything to update like BFPs or any other cahnges, I just made them after I pasted it. Thanks!

[finnegansmom]

Uggghhhhhh. Another stark BFN this morning. I'm assuming that means I'm not pregnant. This month exhausted me for some reason....the waiting from BFN to AF is just the worst.

[enigo]

finnegansmom I know I know!
That and AF to O and then O to BFN. Then AF to O, then O to BFN. Then...Oh you get the picture.

[Qbear'smama]

that bulls**t cycle of waiting to O, waiting to test, BFNs in your face until AF, then waiting to O, I am with you ladies it is like some kind of psychological torture!!!!

On the positive side, it is a beautiful day here and I am heading out to enjoy it! I don't even know when to test or if there is any point to worrying about it...oops, there's the bitterness sneaking in again, no, I am going to be happy today!

[lapis]

ok ladies i started the april thread : )