I need to get this out, so please forgive my long-winded-ness! 
I am officially 41w2d today.
First of all, I don't really mind still being pregnant. It means that I've gotten to get some things done that I wouldn't have been able to if I'd had the baby last week. I'm really not that uncomfortable, other than at night, when I'm getting up hourly to pee, and having to switch from side to side quite a bit while I sleep.
The most difficult part is probably our schedule. DH took time off from his recording studio based on the assumption that the baby would come by last weekend. He doesn't have anything on the schedule that means he needs to come back right now, but there are plenty of clients waiting to be scheduled. It's frustrating because he could be making money there right now, but he can't, since we're waiting for the baby! The studio is 40 minutes away w/o traffic (and he often hits traffic coming home, even at midnight), so I'm not comfortable with him going that far away with this baby coming at any second.
There are other things that we've put off/not gone to/etc. because of the looming baby-day, and while it's not the end of the world that we've missed any of it, it's frustrating sometimes too.
However, I'm looking at the up-side of it all. DH desperately needed the break (between the studio and his other two jobs, he was working about 70 hours a week in January and the beginning of February), we need the time together, and I needed the break from a crazy schedule. It's actually really nice to not have a whole lot to do, and it's something that I haven't experienced in a long time! DH has even found some time to paint (art, not walls), which he hasn't done since high school. I'm REALLY excited about that.
Other than that, I'm trying not to over-analyze the whole date thing. Because I had a miscarriage and then no period before getting pg, we knew going into this that the dates were iffy, but for whatever reason, it never bothered me until now. We decided against a u/s for dating purposes because one, we don't completely trust the dating process, two, we'd really rather avoid u/s if possible, and three, it would have been a financial burden.
Now that I'm at 41w+, we're starting to re-evaluate my dates. By my mw's request, I just sent her off all of this info (most of which I had to sort through threads on another board to find
):
-When I miscarried, spotting started on 5/11, then went away. Started again on 5/18, turned to heavier bleeding on 5/19. I only remember bleeding about a week, and I found something that I wrote on 5/28 saying that I was no longer bleeding.
-Apparently, I tortured myself with a test sometime around 6/12, and it was negative.
-I got a positive on 7/12, and had been having some signs for a couple of weeks before that (peeing a lot, really hungry, super tired, doing really flighty things, really emotional).
-On 7/31, we heard a heartbeat with the doppler.
-Previous to my miscarriage, I had two post-partum periods, 32 days apart. My normal cycle before my very first pregnancy was 35 days. When I had my first miscarriage, in 2004, I got my period exactly 35 days after the miscarriage, and then conceived DS1 on the next cycle.
She's trying to put all of that together to try and figure out a date/date-range that would make more sense. Because we got the heartbeat on 7/31, when I was supposedly 10w4d, she doesn't think that we're off by much more than a week or so, because she doesn't think that she would have gotten a doppler HB earlier than nine weeks.
She's talking about sending me for a u/s on Tuesday, if I haven't had the baby yet, just to make sure everything is okay. DH and I are going to have to talk and pray about that before we make a decision. This is going to seem lame, but it seems so silly to me to finally get a look at the baby just before it's born, ya know? I'm not sure what I want to do. At the same time, I might feel more comfortable with a u/s than with trying natural induction methods when we really don't know for sure how far along I am (and my labors are so intense as it is, I get worried about making them even more intense; I don't know if that's an issue with naturally-induced labor though, like it is with pit). I do know that a u/s would make the rest of our family more at ease, which might make it a worthwhile compromise...
She asked me if I'd be opposed to a vaginal exam on Saturday, and I'm undecided. I'm really pretty against them. I know that she wants to do a membrane sweep if she does one, and I'm very hesitant about doing anything that would compromise the intact-ness of my bag of waters. AROM freaks me out, and I've been happy to have my waters break during pushing, both times.
So, anyway, I just needed to get that all out in type. I'm really not feeling like I must have this baby NOW. Other than being sick of answering a million and one questions, and wishing I could pee a little less, I'm not feeling a huge rush to get the baby out. At this point, I'm perfectly content with whatever the Lord's timing is for our little baby!
ETA: Forgot to add- I do know that my mw is getting a little antsy because next weekend (the 12th, 13th, 14th), she's going to a conference for her continuing education, and she can't not go (she already paid $800 for it). So, she's nervous about me not having the baby before then, and then her not making it to my birth. She could always send another mw, but that's not really the most idea situation. So, there's some pressure from that too...
I am officially 41w2d today.
First of all, I don't really mind still being pregnant. It means that I've gotten to get some things done that I wouldn't have been able to if I'd had the baby last week. I'm really not that uncomfortable, other than at night, when I'm getting up hourly to pee, and having to switch from side to side quite a bit while I sleep.
The most difficult part is probably our schedule. DH took time off from his recording studio based on the assumption that the baby would come by last weekend. He doesn't have anything on the schedule that means he needs to come back right now, but there are plenty of clients waiting to be scheduled. It's frustrating because he could be making money there right now, but he can't, since we're waiting for the baby! The studio is 40 minutes away w/o traffic (and he often hits traffic coming home, even at midnight), so I'm not comfortable with him going that far away with this baby coming at any second.
There are other things that we've put off/not gone to/etc. because of the looming baby-day, and while it's not the end of the world that we've missed any of it, it's frustrating sometimes too.
However, I'm looking at the up-side of it all. DH desperately needed the break (between the studio and his other two jobs, he was working about 70 hours a week in January and the beginning of February), we need the time together, and I needed the break from a crazy schedule. It's actually really nice to not have a whole lot to do, and it's something that I haven't experienced in a long time! DH has even found some time to paint (art, not walls), which he hasn't done since high school. I'm REALLY excited about that.
Other than that, I'm trying not to over-analyze the whole date thing. Because I had a miscarriage and then no period before getting pg, we knew going into this that the dates were iffy, but for whatever reason, it never bothered me until now. We decided against a u/s for dating purposes because one, we don't completely trust the dating process, two, we'd really rather avoid u/s if possible, and three, it would have been a financial burden.
Now that I'm at 41w+, we're starting to re-evaluate my dates. By my mw's request, I just sent her off all of this info (most of which I had to sort through threads on another board to find
):-When I miscarried, spotting started on 5/11, then went away. Started again on 5/18, turned to heavier bleeding on 5/19. I only remember bleeding about a week, and I found something that I wrote on 5/28 saying that I was no longer bleeding.
-Apparently, I tortured myself with a test sometime around 6/12, and it was negative.
-I got a positive on 7/12, and had been having some signs for a couple of weeks before that (peeing a lot, really hungry, super tired, doing really flighty things, really emotional).
-On 7/31, we heard a heartbeat with the doppler.
-Previous to my miscarriage, I had two post-partum periods, 32 days apart. My normal cycle before my very first pregnancy was 35 days. When I had my first miscarriage, in 2004, I got my period exactly 35 days after the miscarriage, and then conceived DS1 on the next cycle.
She's trying to put all of that together to try and figure out a date/date-range that would make more sense. Because we got the heartbeat on 7/31, when I was supposedly 10w4d, she doesn't think that we're off by much more than a week or so, because she doesn't think that she would have gotten a doppler HB earlier than nine weeks.
She's talking about sending me for a u/s on Tuesday, if I haven't had the baby yet, just to make sure everything is okay. DH and I are going to have to talk and pray about that before we make a decision. This is going to seem lame, but it seems so silly to me to finally get a look at the baby just before it's born, ya know? I'm not sure what I want to do. At the same time, I might feel more comfortable with a u/s than with trying natural induction methods when we really don't know for sure how far along I am (and my labors are so intense as it is, I get worried about making them even more intense; I don't know if that's an issue with naturally-induced labor though, like it is with pit). I do know that a u/s would make the rest of our family more at ease, which might make it a worthwhile compromise...
She asked me if I'd be opposed to a vaginal exam on Saturday, and I'm undecided. I'm really pretty against them. I know that she wants to do a membrane sweep if she does one, and I'm very hesitant about doing anything that would compromise the intact-ness of my bag of waters. AROM freaks me out, and I've been happy to have my waters break during pushing, both times.
So, anyway, I just needed to get that all out in type. I'm really not feeling like I must have this baby NOW. Other than being sick of answering a million and one questions, and wishing I could pee a little less, I'm not feeling a huge rush to get the baby out. At this point, I'm perfectly content with whatever the Lord's timing is for our little baby!
ETA: Forgot to add- I do know that my mw is getting a little antsy because next weekend (the 12th, 13th, 14th), she's going to a conference for her continuing education, and she can't not go (she already paid $800 for it). So, she's nervous about me not having the baby before then, and then her not making it to my birth. She could always send another mw, but that's not really the most idea situation. So, there's some pressure from that too...
