I'm better.... better than I was a few days ago. Ugh.. pp hormones are the devil, I swear.
And dangit, it's been quite a while since I had a tiny baby, since dd3 turned four back in December, and I guess I kind of forgot how often tiny babies nurse. A few days ago it was really weighing heavily on me. It was like Hazel was only happy on the boob or if she was sleeping. If she was awake, she wouldn't just be peaceful and content (well, from time to time, but it seemed to be decreasing in frequency) and ONLY wanted to be on the boob -- unless dh was holding her. Then she'd sleep peacefully.
And she totally cluster feeds in the evenings... like from 5-10pm or so... And that's HARD!!! The evenings used to be *my* time. After I'd get the older girls to bed, I would have a bit of quiet time in the evenings before dh would get off of work at 10 p.m. But now it's all about the boobie milk. I'm getting closer to being at peace with it.. but it sure took some getting used to.
Today I took Hazel to *gasp* a DOCTOR! lol ... I needed to get the (first) PKU test done (just about the only test we do at all) and then I figured we might as well meet with a doctor because honestly, we don't even HAVE a family doctor for us! So, we went to the only small clinic that seems to hold doctors (through the hospital, they're always rotating through.. they sign short contracts, so it's somebody different all the time, it seems... and I live in a very small, rural community.. not a lot of choices anyway). I met with a wonderful female doctor who I really liked. I think I could easily see all of our family seeing her. She like Hazel's cloth diapers (which I made
and yes, I *DID* pick out her cutest ones... with hand-dyed bamboo velour outers
), liked the clothes I made her and was happy to see her nursing since she nursed her own daughter. When the vax issue came up (which I declined), she told me she has to tell me about them and that she recommends them, but it's all up to me
And just left it at that!
(phew! I had geared myself up for a battle.. but was pleasantly surprised that it wasn't a big deal!).
They did weigh her and I was happy to see that she's gained weight above and beyond her birth weight even
I *do* know that she certainly nurses plenty (and has bazillions of poopy/wet diapers to prove it)... but somehow it's just another nice validation to see her weight increasing the way it's supposed to.
I'm totally wordy right now because Hazel is sleeping on my bed, so I *gasp* have TWO HANDS to type with
Quite the feat these days
Today is dh's first day back at work... we'll see how the evening goes (since he works 1-10pm) with just us girls... eek!
Oh, and I had a question too... I got some of the Earth Mama Angel Baby Milkmaid tea as a present from a friend and had some last night... but then on the box was reading today that the reason not to drink it during pregnancy is that it brings on menstruation (or something to that effect)... so... would that prolong even pp bleeding? Or am I totally stretching on that line of thought? (I swear, some days my thoughts seem to make complete sense.. some days... eh... not so much
) Basically.. I'm ready for things to STOP in that department.
okay... enough babbling....