Psych update: Doc said my brain is on overload, and family emotional blackmail is not helping. It's already known that I mentally can not handle to be under too much pressure, but with the added family stress, my brain is disorganised. He gave me samples of Abilify and Seroquel xr. He said these meds are only temperary until I'm able to get my brain o.k. if that makes sense. He didn't think adding more antidepressant medication would really help, but he is putting thought into adding wellbutrin. He also wants me to make sure and take vitamin D3 and flaxseed oil. I have to email him saturday to let him know how things are going. Sooner if things are not well. He knows that one of my main goals is to get off meds, and he's supportive, although he said this is not the time.
The emotional abuse comes from my grandmother, and has been an ongoing problem, although lately I'm the target. Now, because she is sickly, she's getting worse. The doc said there is no way to change her, and she is not going to change. I would be writing a novel to explain the sick and twisted relationship, but he did say that it is o.k. to lie, tell her I have to volunteer somewhere, and just get away. He said to tell her I am helping him with research, that way she can't give me crap, then go out and doing something enjoyable.
This is the first time in a long time I am up, and have been up since 6am. I dont' know if that's good or bad. I took Abilify yesterday. Maybe today I'll take the seroquel to see if that is better or worse. I dont' know yet, I mean, it's kindof nice not to be hating the fact I'm awake.
Today I"m going to a friends house. dd and her son are friends, and it's her little boys birthday today. My grandma has expressed that she doesn't like my friend, although they have NEVER MET. She is jeolous that I am going. I almost NEVER go anywhere, but never the less, she is jeolous. "" you never want to spend time with me, but you'll spend time with this kelly person, I guess she's your real family"
oh well, I going, what grandma is doing is abuse, rather she realizes it or not.
Ok, so I wrote a book.
For those who know about vitamins, can taking vitamin d3 hurt? I know that sounds so stupid since I'm agreeing to take psych meds.