Baby blues are kicking my a$$!

[busymama77]

So much more so than they did when I had DS#1. I cry when I think about DH (when he's traveling). Or when DS#1 goes off to preschool AND when he gets home. I went nutso over the weekend with DS and his attitude and two no-nap days in a row for him which made him crabby, whiney and nearly intolerable. It wasn't like him to be this way and it wasn't like me to be that way.... It was awful and I couldn't stop crying about it.

I get aggrivated with my mom for calling all of the time just to 'check in'. It's driving me crazy and I don't see the need for it. Does she really want me to sit there and tell her how my day went? About the lack of sleep I'm dealing with right now and I'm only 6 days PP!? I can't talk to her without her giving some sort of 'advice' and that's not what I'm looking for.... Hell, even my DH can understand that!!

All I've got to say that hormones are a b*tch and I cannot wait to move past this point of PP. I'm in love with my baby and my family and am looking forward to feeling NORMAL again!!!

[stacylsc]

Amen, sister! I would LOVE to get past this point...soon, sister, soon.

[aramat]

Waiting for my doc appt... Meanwhile, exercise really helps me...when I'm not feeling too p*ssed-off at having to do it!

[biennourri]

I felt okay, up and down, but okay until this gd cold has taken a turn for the worst and I'm feverish and just knocked out. How long can this go on? I keep thinking it will be better tomorrow and I'll feel better and in small ways I am. My incision doesn't hurt most of the time and I'm feeling better in that respect than last time. I'm just achey from the sinus infection, which I finally went to the doc about today. They actually gave me antiboitics, which are like harder to get than methadone. Hopefully tomorrow will be better??

DD1 is also a little nightmare, but getting much better. We've had two okay days now and it's 23 and 24 days on now. I think she was really freaked out about my going into the hospital and then coming home, then going back in with Lucy. She keeps saying we have to go to the hospital now, so that's my clue.

Cluster feeding from 4 to 10 is pretty draining too, KWIM? Maybe we're all just exhausted? I keep thinking women aren't meant to live in isolation, doing everything ourselves straight from the birthing-bed!

I'm trying to adjust here, but the devil in my brain just keeps telling me it's not good enough and I'm a failure How many times can I tell it to go to hell?

[aramat]

Originally Posted by biennourri

I keep thinking women aren't meant to live in isolation, doing everything ourselves straight from the birthing-bed!

So true! When my midwife came for my check-up, I wanted to grab her leg and prevent her from leaving; her presence is just so...soothing.

I feel a thousand times worse if I eat ANY sugar, but better with water, protein, & exercise. HUGS!

[biennourri]

So I was thinking listening to hypnosis was helping me relax about pregnancy and birthing (when I was still planning to try to birth this baby myself) and so I have another relaxation hypo book (not pregnancy related) on my iPod. I think it's helped a bit. I get so stressed out it's hard to step back and just problem solve. I think having positive messages pumped into my head helps derail the loop of negative thoughts.

[aramat]

Originally Posted by biennourri

So I was thinking listening to hypnosis was helping me relax about pregnancy and birthing (when I was still planning to try to birth this baby myself) and so I have another relaxation hypo book (not pregnancy related) on my iPod. I think it's helped a bit. I get so stressed out it's hard to step back and just problem solve. I think having positive messages pumped into my head helps derail the loop of negative thoughts.

That sounds like a really good idea. I think I might put on some classical music, too.

[strawberryprincess]

***hugs***
take care of yourself mama! I hope you work through everything quickly and can adjust to your new normal very soon.