Originally Posted by readytobedone
Yes, a NST
There is nothing saying you have to stay and be induced. Show up, do the NST, and take it from there. Despite the doom and gloom from some on this thread, the doctors cannot force you to be induced or sectioned.
To my understanding, they would need to do an U/S to look at the fluid levels, so she would need a biophysical profile-- which, really, is just an NST plus an U/S. But, I agree with the rest.
Originally Posted by Katie34
at this point I kind of want to do the nst. I just wish there were somewhere to do it without all the additional stuff.
I am so sick of this!!!!
I mean- my bottom line belief is that a body can grow and birth a baby without technology. Yet I do see how in some cases technology helps or even saves a baby. So wouldn't it be ironic if I were on of those small percent of people who actually DID need intevention?
I feel like people in my life are thinking I am trying to hold on to some (ouch- major contraction right now!) higher moral ground or somehting and putting my baby at danger. I do not want to do anything to put my baby at danger!
I just did not want ot be induced.
But is there some point where maybe to be induced is the right thing? but then again- I am having contractions- .such a hard place here. I never wanted this.
I just wanted to have a peaceful homebirth. this is a huge yucky feeling right now. I just want my baby to be born healthy and SOON.
I'm so sorry you are in this position, Katie. We've known each other since our days in the TTC in our 30s thread and both somehow ended up in the position of dealing with male factor infertility. Just conceiving for us was more invasive and less intimate than either of us wanted. We went somewhat different routes in terms of our birth choices (I chose A MW attended birth at a free-standing birthcenter), but I TOTALLY get your desire for peace and calm and a healing birth experience.
I am trying to tread carefully here because I don't want to scare you with what happened in my situation, because what happened to me was very rare, but I did want to give you my thoughts. I fell into that small percentage that needed intervention. In fact, I fell into the even smaller percentage of women that need intervention but show no outward signs until it is too late. I just want to say that when it came to end of my pregnancy, I had some of the usual late-pregnancy worries and now, in hindsight
, they feel predictive. They feel like I somehow knew what was going to happen. BUT, and this is key
, the thing that saves my sanity is that I KNOW in my heart of hearts that I was just having the normal worries most moms have and that I didn't really know what was going to happen to me or my baby. Because if I knew, really KNEW, then I would have done WHATEVER it took to bring my baby safely into this world. What mom wouldn't? Hospital, c-section, the works. I wouldn't have been happy about it and probably would have had some hard feelings to work through, but if I really knew
, I would have done it.
I say this because I hear you taking a lot of this onto yourself and I want to let you off that particular hook. You can't be expected to be able to sort out right now, in the throws of possible prodromal labor and normal pregnancy worries and being postdates, where your "fear" may be coming from. REALLY. Stop expecting that of yourself, because it's putting WAY too much pressure on you. I have been on the loss boards long enough to tell you that the idea that anyone will magically just know if things are or aren't okay is a fallacy-- and a particularly painful one if things go wrong because women who believe it blame themselves. And they REALLY SHOULDN'T.
I really hope this is it, that your contractions pick up and your baby gets here quickly and safely and peacefully. But don't, for an instance, get down on yourself if you decide to go for outside help. I know it can be so hard to trust medical staff to do the right thing, which in this case, would probably be to do an NST or BPP and advise you about what they think is in your best interest. If they find something that indicates induction or c-section, then you will have to make the decision of whether you and your DP believe them and think it's the right choice. I'm in a different pregnancy now and even after everything I have been through, I am still having a hard time trusting the doctors I have to work with. BUT, just like there are awesome midwives out there, there are awesome doctors out there and none of them (or you) have a crystal ball. You can only look at the evidence at hand and try to make the best choice. It's hard to be in your position because you don't know who you'll come into contact with at the hospital, they could be awesome or they could be challenging, but if I were you, I'd funnel all my positivity and self-determination into walking in there with the plan to see what is going on with the baby and into not accepting interventions unless you feel convinced (or as convinced as possible) that they are necessary.
The problem for those of us responding here is that we all want the best for you, we are (of course) going to disagree about how to best go about that, we can recite statistics, but NONE of us can tell you which side of the statistics you fall into (i.e. whether you are in the percentage that needs intervention or not). I wish we could, it would take an awful lot off your shoulders.
I'm sending you love and strength and my fervent hope that your baby arrives quickly, peacefully, and safely into your arms.