Hi Sage Green (one of my favorite colors and the color of my walls
I do think your family is complete. And I do not think that you will be able to endure any more postpartum stress. I get the sense that you are unsure, not really because of yourself, so much as needing to let go of expectations. As in, you always thought you would have more children then you do. Or someone else like your spouse thought that. I do not feel that inside your heart there is confusion. I feel like it's only in your mind. Go ahead and shed that. Enjoy your family as you do and allow yourself to feel complete. You are. Your son will not grow up without a father. It will only be a short time. There is someone else for you and him waiting in the wings. He won't come forward for a couple of years, b/c he doesn't want to pick up the pieces. That is not what this relationship will be based on.