I know that I will love both of my babies and won't be able to imagine my life without them. I guess I am just mourning the loss of the life that I had pictured for my family.
Wow, hadn't thought about that for a bit. I'd only have one at home during the day and I'd be pursuing MY deams rather than raising MORE babies. Sigh. Now I pretty much have to homeschool because we can't afford private school for six and it will be years and years before I'm able to start my career in midwifery. Thank god I have my photography as an outlet!
I think I'd better go love on my sweet babies for a few minutes.