DS was an intense baby who, I like to say, trained me how to babywear and bed share. I had some definite crunchy tendencies, but I never thought putting him in a crib would be so hard. For both of us. Until he turned one, I (or Gramma) held him for every nap because it was that, or he'd not sleep.
He'll be two next month, and we've embraced the AP lifestyle. I can't imagine not snuggling up to him at night, especially with a DH who travels for part of the week. I'm not looking to stop bedsharing.
My question concerns my state of mind: How do I allow myself to leave him briefly, now that he does not need to be touching me to sleep? I put him to sleep and stay in bed (even if it's only 7:45pm) for the rest of the night. I read/work/surf on the laptop, then go to sleep a couple hours later. For naps, I stay in bed with him, too. He's been at day care for the past six months, and no adult lies down the entire time with him, although he sleeps among other children.
So why, when I need to get up to: get the laundry from the dryer/use the bathroom/let the dog out... do I frantically RACE to get back into bed with him? I honestly get panicky about leaving him alone. Has he trained me THAT well?
The days are getting longer, and part of me longs to go sit on the porch with DH or do some yoga or go chat on the phone with a friend or take up a craft project; yet I continue to deny myself these indulgences for fear he'll wake up and find me not there.
Has anyone else experienced this and overcome it? Is this a sign of anxiety? I appreciate any advice!
He'll be two next month, and we've embraced the AP lifestyle. I can't imagine not snuggling up to him at night, especially with a DH who travels for part of the week. I'm not looking to stop bedsharing.
My question concerns my state of mind: How do I allow myself to leave him briefly, now that he does not need to be touching me to sleep? I put him to sleep and stay in bed (even if it's only 7:45pm) for the rest of the night. I read/work/surf on the laptop, then go to sleep a couple hours later. For naps, I stay in bed with him, too. He's been at day care for the past six months, and no adult lies down the entire time with him, although he sleeps among other children.
So why, when I need to get up to: get the laundry from the dryer/use the bathroom/let the dog out... do I frantically RACE to get back into bed with him? I honestly get panicky about leaving him alone. Has he trained me THAT well?
The days are getting longer, and part of me longs to go sit on the porch with DH or do some yoga or go chat on the phone with a friend or take up a craft project; yet I continue to deny myself these indulgences for fear he'll wake up and find me not there.Has anyone else experienced this and overcome it? Is this a sign of anxiety? I appreciate any advice!
