I totally have that perfectionism when it comes to home decorating. (Not cleaning so much, that's just ineptness!) I love the idea of having a home that actually looks put-together and themed and House and Garden-y, but every time I see a gorgeous design spread I dismiss it with "Well, I dunno if that's really
me".
Seriously, every time I want to do something as simple as sew a cushion, I get crippled by these thoughts. Is it MEEEE? Does it express the tiniest, subtlest, most intricate quirks of my personality? What if I get sick of it in five years? What if I learn to sew better by then, so this looks shoddy? What if I ruin good fabric? What if I use this fabric I picked up at the thrift store, but later we can afford really good fabric and this looks cheap? What if I wait and save up to buy fancy 100% linen from the craft store? Are the colours too trendy? If I use neutrals, does that make me a boring person at whom designers would scoff? Didn't I vow when I got married to have different cushions, quilts etc in the living room for every season? What if my designs are too girly for DH? What if I go off steampunk? What if my version of steampunk is too generic and not one-of-a-kind enough? Why won't DH hurry up and design the typgraphical frieze I want for the living room, which should take him a mere 1,400 man-hours to complete? Do I only like this because everybody on Craftster's doing it,?
And so on and on, until I'm convinced that the world as we know it will explode in a flaming ball of fire (or ice, if them's your leanings) if I do not spend six years acquiring the knowledge and skills of a professional decorator online before I dare to TOUCH my (rented!) living room. So nothing ever gets decorated. Plus, I'm slowly developing scruples that further hinder my progress - I like to buy things second-hand, avoid MIC, avoid teak, ethics, frugality, blah blah blah - all good things, but it doesn't exactly help. Sometimes I really wish I had the gumption just to go out and buy a duvet, some pillows and a lampshade. Whether they were "me" or not, they'd make the bedroom look a whole lot better than it currently does.

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