Worried about an "oopsie!"

[Kim B Lynn]

I did FAM successfully for 2 years and 3 months before getting pregnant with DS. It was a conscious decision, and we got preggo immediately. So I had a lot of faith in the method, and decided to do LAM. I've been following the rules in "Taking Charge of Your Fertility." I had no bleeding after 54 days, DS was exclusively breastfed never going more than 4 hours, and until yesterday was less than 6 months old. I also checked myself before sex every time.

Now that he's 6 months old, I'm going to start charting again. But I digress...

I was complaining to my mom on the phone about being tired, and she made a comment about me maybe being pregnant. I laughed it off, but now that it's sunk in, I'm a little worried. I'm seeing and feeling other signs. I'm not sure if it's because I'm paranoid, pregnant, or from some other cause.

My boobs are a little tender and I don't feel like I'm making as much milk as usual. I've never had supply problems ever...if anything I'm an overproducer. This scares me the most. I haven't started solids at all yet.

Also, I feel more you know....horny....and my dreams are different than usual as well. I commented to my hubby that I wondered if my fertility was coming back because my dreams are all about dating and being in love, etc.

I'm just really Really REALLY hoping that I'm not. It's way too close of a gap for me. I think. Maybe I'm being humbled from my "Natural is the BEST" way of thinking...I don't know. I don't have the money, I'm still trying to take care of my first baby.....you know. It's just not what I'm wanting.

So....as soon as a get a few dollars, I'm going to walk over to walgreens and get a test. I'm DREADING doing this. I almost want to just ignore it and hope for the best, but I'm so worried right now that I can't stop thinking about it.

Thanks for listening. I just needed somewhere to whine/vent.

[MamatoA]

(hug) That's really a hard place to be. One suggestion is to go have a test at Birthright or someplace like that. It's free that way....

[luv-my-boys]

I totally get where your coming from on the wanting to do it "natural" but considering your anxiousness with what "might" be have you considered using a physical barrier (condom,diaphram) along with your charting?

[Kim B Lynn]

Whew...safe and sound and not pregnant. I was actually getting sick. Never thought I'd be happy to have a bout of montezuma's revenge....I had taken a test and it was negative, but I wanted to wait a while and try again because I wasn't sure if I had waited long enough. I was negative again, then my sickness kicked in full force. Not a fun thing, but I'm glad it wasn't the alternative. I'll be happy to have a second child eventually, but I want more than a 15 month gap!

Now I just have to worry about keeping an eye on my fertility still....talk about stressful. We're using barriers for now so we don't have to worry about it too much, but I'd like to get back to au natural.

[Sol_y_Paz]

If money is an issue than you have the option to grab some cheap dollar tests. They still work properly. Hope you start to feel better soon.