William goes in for his initial testing on Friday. He is having new patient testing done, developmental testing, and neurobehavioral testing. I am freaking out. The closer I get the more anxious I am. I feel like throwing up. The worst part is I might have to take him alone which is the real reason I think I am freaking. If I get any dx I am not expecting I am going to have to deal with it alone. I mean I THINK I know what they will say but who knows if they will add something onto it, or ask us to come back for more testing, or, or or.....
I mean I suspect SPD. Plus he has a large speech delay, is almost 4 1/2 and not potty trained, has trouble understanding things (though not always which confuses me), and some other "quirks". I worry that they will say all that adds up to (fill in the balnk). Fill in the blank being something I know nothing about, and am not prepared to hear. I mean I know whatever it is we will get through. I know that it will all be ok and he will still be the same William as before the tests. I know the results can only help make his life and our life easier.....but the unknown is SO SO scarey!
I am so freaked about Friday that this week is SO hard on me. I wanna snap at all my kids, homeschooling my oldest is a NIGHTMARE (I have NO patience), every little thing is bugging me. William's things are bugging me. Things I KNOW he is not doing to make me annoyed but it is just him have me wanting to rip out my hair. Normally I can handle it REALLY well. I KNOW it has to do with Friday. I KNOW I am stressed about it. I tried to talk with DH about it but he seams to think I should just stop stressing and wait till Friday. Yeah easier said then done. I just needed to get this out somewhere where people would understand. I am so on edge waiting for Friday I feel like I am gonna explode! UGH!
I mean I suspect SPD. Plus he has a large speech delay, is almost 4 1/2 and not potty trained, has trouble understanding things (though not always which confuses me), and some other "quirks". I worry that they will say all that adds up to (fill in the balnk). Fill in the blank being something I know nothing about, and am not prepared to hear. I mean I know whatever it is we will get through. I know that it will all be ok and he will still be the same William as before the tests. I know the results can only help make his life and our life easier.....but the unknown is SO SO scarey!
I am so freaked about Friday that this week is SO hard on me. I wanna snap at all my kids, homeschooling my oldest is a NIGHTMARE (I have NO patience), every little thing is bugging me. William's things are bugging me. Things I KNOW he is not doing to make me annoyed but it is just him have me wanting to rip out my hair. Normally I can handle it REALLY well. I KNOW it has to do with Friday. I KNOW I am stressed about it. I tried to talk with DH about it but he seams to think I should just stop stressing and wait till Friday. Yeah easier said then done. I just needed to get this out somewhere where people would understand. I am so on edge waiting for Friday I feel like I am gonna explode! UGH!
I felt much the same way leading up to and after DD's SPD and speech delay dxs. Even though they were the dxs I expected, it was still really hard to wait for the evals and see the results in black and white.
in my journey the point you are at now was the hardest time. This is stressful. Can hubby take a day off or a grandparent come and help and give you some time away this week or anything similar? I don't have any advice but I have tons of sympathy. 
