Our nearly 17 yr old cat has been deteriorating since the day of my 8 week prenatal when she went blind. Yesterday we made the choice to have her put to sleep. It was so, so hard. We'd done it before 1.5 yrs ago but that cat had developed pretty severe dementia and it was somehow easier since she was already mentally gone. This kitty though was my absolute favorite and in our lives for so long. I can't really imagine life without her.
We took her to the vet yesterday afternoon for the procedure and took almost 3 yr old DS. He got super squirrelly, making it really hard to focus on what was going on. I think it was his way of reacting to the stress. Then we went out to dinner because we didn't want to come home yet to our kitty-less house and on the way into the restaurant he was so squirrelly while I was holding his hand walking that he pulled me down. I guess the pregnancy contributed to loosing my balance, and we both landed face down on the sidewalk. I ended up the worst with a badly bruised right knee and a scraped up/torn pants left knee and burning hands. I just lay there on the ground sobbing. I felt so pathetic. And man did the waterworks kick in. DS was uncharacteristically a nightmare at dinner, right when we needed him to be "good", you know?
And, today I'm solo parenting and it's not going well. DS is driving me crazy and I keep crying.
Just needed some support.
We took her to the vet yesterday afternoon for the procedure and took almost 3 yr old DS. He got super squirrelly, making it really hard to focus on what was going on. I think it was his way of reacting to the stress. Then we went out to dinner because we didn't want to come home yet to our kitty-less house and on the way into the restaurant he was so squirrelly while I was holding his hand walking that he pulled me down. I guess the pregnancy contributed to loosing my balance, and we both landed face down on the sidewalk. I ended up the worst with a badly bruised right knee and a scraped up/torn pants left knee and burning hands. I just lay there on the ground sobbing. I felt so pathetic. And man did the waterworks kick in. DS was uncharacteristically a nightmare at dinner, right when we needed him to be "good", you know?
And, today I'm solo parenting and it's not going well. DS is driving me crazy and I keep crying.
Just needed some support.
I am so sorry mama! That is always a rough decision to have to make. The little ones pick up on our energy/vibes so much more than we realize & it usually causes them to do exactly the opposite of what we really need them to do. I hope DS calms for you soon.
s Losing a furry family member is so incredibly hard. 17 years is a long time to have your kitty! Be sure to give yourself lots of time to work through your loss. It sounds like DS is reacting in his own way to your emotional turmoil and understanding where your kitty is.
I hope you are doing better today and take it slow. Are you ok from falling down?
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