I need to stop hoping for a better past, but I don't know how.
I want my family back, my marriage and the love we had for one another.
After 4 years of betrayal I don't know when did he stop loving me
And I am incredibly hurt that he doesn't love me enough to try hard enough, or to try at all. I dont know why he came back this last time. The only explanation I find is that he came back for the comforts of home, laying down watching TV, the warm meals and the laundry as shared responsibilities. Not for me. At the same time I dont understand why isn't he moving with his girlfriend. I suspect she is not ready to have him there with her two kids from a previous marriage.
I am so hurt I cannot move, I stop in the middle of something and just have to cry, to scream. I hide from my son so i can cry, I hide in the bathroom at work, or in my car. And the pain is so intense I don't know what to do.
I try to pick me up, it has been less than a week since I learned he had betrayed me one more time and I finally decided I no longer want a relationship with him, he left, without even trying, said nothing, he even looked annoyed. Why did he come back then?
It has to get better, my chest is so tight.
I am learning about divorce, i never thought I would be here.
I magine myself filling up an innocent application and getting to the marital status part. Can I choose single instead. It was souposed to me single, married, widowed. no detours.
I want my family back, my marriage and the love we had for one another.
After 4 years of betrayal I don't know when did he stop loving me
And I am incredibly hurt that he doesn't love me enough to try hard enough, or to try at all. I dont know why he came back this last time. The only explanation I find is that he came back for the comforts of home, laying down watching TV, the warm meals and the laundry as shared responsibilities. Not for me. At the same time I dont understand why isn't he moving with his girlfriend. I suspect she is not ready to have him there with her two kids from a previous marriage.
I am so hurt I cannot move, I stop in the middle of something and just have to cry, to scream. I hide from my son so i can cry, I hide in the bathroom at work, or in my car. And the pain is so intense I don't know what to do.
I try to pick me up, it has been less than a week since I learned he had betrayed me one more time and I finally decided I no longer want a relationship with him, he left, without even trying, said nothing, he even looked annoyed. Why did he come back then?
It has to get better, my chest is so tight.
I am learning about divorce, i never thought I would be here.
I magine myself filling up an innocent application and getting to the marital status part. Can I choose single instead. It was souposed to me single, married, widowed. no detours.
I am so sorry mama.
That is such a hard place to be. I'm glad you feel done. Now you can stop letting him use you and play with your heart like that
