I am so at my breaking point. My dd's (10 months) night sleep is actually not too bad. It's getting her to sleep that is killing me. Rocking leads to screaming and flailing. Nursing leads to her pulling off and looking all around. Sometimes I think she's just not tired or overtired or I don't know what. I just can't deal with it anymore. My dh works long hours and travels a lot and is not emotionally supportive when he is here. I just put both my 10 month old and my 5 year old in their room (they share a room) and told them to go to sleep. The baby is crying and I just don't have the energy to do anything about it. I'm upset that I didn't get to do my bedtime routine with my 5 y.o. dd (reading, massage, lying down together). I'm upset that I can't peacefully get my 10 month old to sleep. I just don't know what to do. I am somewhat depressed and am tired of trying to always do the right thing when it is always so hard. I just don't have the energy for it anymore, but when I "give out" like this I feel even worse like I have failed. I just had to vent. I know many of you have been in my shoes before. Thank you for listening.
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3/30/10 at 10:11pm