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"For two weeks now we have take his blood pressure once a day and if it's still high, he's going to be put on blood pressure medication at only 28 years of age

Also, two years ago he had the same problem and his tonsils were already enlarged. Now, his tonsils are almost "kissing" according to the doctor to the point where he may need to see an ENT or risk problems sleeping."
Unschoolinmom- my dh had some sleep issues and it can cause blood pressure issues. Does dh snore? Might be worth checking out both problems. *hugs* I totally freaked when dh had blood pressure issues.

He does snore as well. Blood pressure runs in the family. His mother has been on meds since she was 30. He sleeps fine, just snores. I'm the one with sleep issues :/
post #82 of 596
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aaagghh! can i just complain here! lol i am looking up CBE classes/certifications... my goddess! could there be more of them? i looked a bit deeper into CAPPA and i have an issue with a couple things, their philosophy states they do not like "zion" births (UC) which i have had and although i wouldn't go about saying that is the way to go, if someone asked about it i would be honest, but to be a part of CAPPA i am suppose to discourage that. i can't. so i am looking into "birthing from within" i am also going to check out hypnobabies and a few others. i have a reading list too. i can get all but one from the library, so that is cool.
my thing is, i have this vision. i want it to be open, comfortable, artistic, i want the parents to feel encouraged. i want to have a reference library, a list of doulas, i want to do it in my home (our living room is big). and eventually one day i want to be a midwife... but that is years away. i don't know.. you know how you have a vision of how something should be... it is just getting it to that point.
ok so that is my TM thing i guess... working out this thing! lol
i also got a hold of the LLL leaders here and they are excited to work with me, so YEAH!

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post #83 of 596
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aaagghh! can i just complain here! lol i am looking up CBE classes/certifications... my goddess! could there be more of them? i looked a bit deeper into CAPPA and i have an issue with a couple things, their philosophy states they do not like "zion" births (UC) which i have had and although i wouldn't go about saying that is the way to go, if someone asked about it i would be honest, but to be a part of CAPPA i am suppose to discourage that. i can't. so i am looking into "birthing from within" i am also going to check out hypnobabies and a few others. i have a reading list too. i can get all but one from the library, so that is cool.
my thing is, i have this vision. i want it to be open, comfortable, artistic, i want the parents to feel encouraged. i want to have a reference library, a list of doulas, i want to do it in my home (our living room is big). and eventually one day i want to be a midwife... but that is years away. i don't know.. you know how you have a vision of how something should be... it is just getting it to that point.
ok so that is my TM thing i guess... working out this thing! lol
i also got a hold of the LLL leaders here and they are excited to work with me, so YEAH!

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Heather, if anyone can do it, you can! I would love you to be my midwife. I know the birth center that I've joined thinks exactly as you do, maybe I could ask my midwife what she did if you want? Let me know.

So...my bbs hurt...and i've been peeing (sorry TMI) once every hour! I've been crashing for hours at a time. I mean, it's like I'm fine and then suddenly I feel wiped out. My bladder still feels full too. My nips feel like someone is clawing at them!

And amazingly my ds is taking a nap. Growth spurt maybe?
post #84 of 596
thank you all for your wonderful replies!!

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are there some things that you want that are pretty neutral?
thank you for asking that. i read it yesterday, and it really started me trying to think what that might look like!

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Originally Posted by Valérie.Qc View Post
I try to let the images and the words pop at me instead of looking for things to fit my ideas... Then, this is an ideal and it's rarely achieved. ... Using meditation or dreams to find answers can come handy too. (tapping too... )
yes, that first bit, that's what i typically do, too, but that's exactly what i dont want to do this time, being too afraid that being so "off" i'd get something really not me.... and yes, tapping. ohhh, chakra cleansings galore, you know it!

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Oh hugs mama. I am new to TM, this will be my first year. I am not sure of all the rules that apply to TM. I get where you are coming from, sometimes I am nervous to ask for things too thinking my mind might be so unable to focus the outcome won't be what I want. Is starting it on 14th set in stone?
thanks for the hugs, you! i think you got the answers you need? if not, ask more!

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Aweyn-do you want to talk? It really seems like your life has been in flux for awhile- dh in school, job stuff, moves- lots of change. even good change can totally offset your inner balance, rhythm and life. *hugs* What are you doing for you in the midst of this?
aww, thanks. yep, many years of flux! and just when we thought it was going to settle, it poofed! ...doing for me, alas. i'd thought i was doing the right thing for me, but it blew up in a big way yesterday, so the answer to that is "trying to hold it together at the moment!" really at this point, it's a matter of waiting for the dust to settle, which probably will be in... july... well, that's when it will start to settle. i think. i hope. maybe some elements will settle a bit before then.... meantime, i'll be working on manifesting that "something for me" element. i think actually, that will be my whole map. <greedy, selfish grin here!>

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I guess for me right now I'm not afraid of manifesting something bizarre (which I've certainly done!)... I'm just going to go for it this year.
see, i'm utterly terrified of exactly that. utterly. terrified. i'm not going thru another year like this one. i'm afraid i would not make it intact thru to the other end.... for me, this year, it will be, i'm imagining, the softest, fluffiest map... although, i have to be careful, because the time in my life i was by far the most pampered and looked after was when i was pg and sick as a... dog? parrot? frog? pig? pregnant woman?

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Originally Posted by saphire View Post
aweynsayl- If you want to take a break from TM this year, you can. OTOH, If I were in your shoes, I would TM all about security, comfort, peace, roots, etc. Something to keep me going during tough times. And I may not even put a house image on a TM, I may take a break- but that's just me.
thank you for this, and your comments in the other thread. you rock. you and your pool. maybe i'll put swiming in your pool on my map....

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Aweyn - What does your inner voice say about doing a TM?
you know, it really was saying, yesterday, "dont even think about it!" but then, i was thinking about manifesting ... well, stuff. a house, things, the life we want, those things. but once i started from the beginning (from mamaofthree's question), and thought-- really, i just want a nice shower, and maybe some new dishes.... well, it seemed a little more... do-able. i dont have to know what/where/how/when i "want" to do a map, kwim? i can just ask for peace and a nice shower.

you guys seriously rock. thank you so so much. i owe ya, big time.



now, where the bleep is cari?????? freaking me out. and where's maia????
post #85 of 596
starting TM- there's a lot of info in the TM thread. But the quicky version is the start time is set in stone (or stars, maybe?) since it corresponds to an actual minute when the energies shift from one sign to another. BUT, once that shift happens you have three days of "peak" energy to make the map and another week or so of "pretty good" energy if you need the extra time. It's not a race or anything, even though I guess there is a sort of astro starting gun, so the idea is to take your time during that peak energy and at least start the map then. But you really only need to be "done" by the 24th? 28th? Around there. Tracy explains it better in the TM thread but because you're waiting for that astro clock to click over it's better to start "late" (and miss the peak energy flow) than to start "early" (and not have the right energy at all).

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send me some luck, k? I may have appendicitis, and I CAN'T have appendicitis right now! I had a stomach ache this afternoon starting around 3, it localized down to my lower right quadrant (pinkie on top of pelvic bone, thumb towards belly button, pain is pretty specifically 4 fingers "in" towards the midline), hurts to move/touch/cough. I've taken gas-x and ibuprofen with no change. Mild fever. Sooooo.... if it gets worse during the night we'll call my MIL or mom to come watch the sleeping girls and head to the hospital. And if it still hurts this specifically/intensely in the morning we'll go to the dr or the ER. But I'm really hoping it's just an insanely persistant gas pain, you know? Or some residual food poisoning thing. I need it to be that "good reality". So I'd love a few supporters in that view!
post #86 of 596
Clay- Sending lots of vibes your way! Though it could explain the illness from the other day. My Mom said that is how my Dad was...
But I am hoping it is not that!
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Thread Starter 
clay: do not wait around for it to get worse. if it ruptures it is very bad. go in to the er and have them look you over.

h
post #88 of 596
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Originally Posted by wombatclay View Post
starting TM- there's a lot of info in the TM thread. But the quicky version is the start time is set in stone (or stars, maybe?) since it corresponds to an actual minute when the energies shift from one sign to another. BUT, once that shift happens you have three days of "peak" energy to make the map and another week or so of "pretty good" energy if you need the extra time. It's not a race or anything, even though I guess there is a sort of astro starting gun, so the idea is to take your time during that peak energy and at least start the map then. But you really only need to be "done" by the 24th? 28th? Around there. Tracy explains it better in the TM thread but because you're waiting for that astro clock to click over it's better to start "late" (and miss the peak energy flow) than to start "early" (and not have the right energy at all).

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send me some luck, k? I may have appendicitis, and I CAN'T have appendicitis right now! I had a stomach ache this afternoon starting around 3, it localized down to my lower right quadrant (pinkie on top of pelvic bone, thumb towards belly button, pain is pretty specifically 4 fingers "in" towards the midline), hurts to move/touch/cough. I've taken gas-x and ibuprofen with no change. Mild fever. Sooooo.... if it gets worse during the night we'll call my MIL or mom to come watch the sleeping girls and head to the hospital. And if it still hurts this specifically/intensely in the morning we'll go to the dr or the ER. But I'm really hoping it's just an insanely persistant gas pain, you know? Or some residual food poisoning thing. I need it to be that "good reality". So I'd love a few supporters in that view!
Clay - please, please, please go and get that looked at! No change in pain and I am assuming hurts to touch, means you've tried to palpate the area and experienced pain. I'm concerned you have this pain plus fever, is there an urgent care clinic near you? Typically they can help sort out whether something is more ER vs. see your doctor.

If you still believe its gas pain - usually helps if you can get into child pose with your hips a bit higher than normal.
post #89 of 596
Healthy Vibes Clay!

DoK- How are you feeling?
post #90 of 596
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Originally Posted by wombatclay View Post
starting TM- there's a lot of info in the TM thread. But the quicky version is the start time is set in stone (or stars, maybe?) since it corresponds to an actual minute when the energies shift from one sign to another. BUT, once that shift happens you have three days of "peak" energy to make the map and another week or so of "pretty good" energy if you need the extra time. It's not a race or anything, even though I guess there is a sort of astro starting gun, so the idea is to take your time during that peak energy and at least start the map then. But you really only need to be "done" by the 24th? 28th? Around there. Tracy explains it better in the TM thread but because you're waiting for that astro clock to click over it's better to start "late" (and miss the peak energy flow) than to start "early" (and not have the right energy at all).

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send me some luck, k? I may have appendicitis, and I CAN'T have appendicitis right now! I had a stomach ache this afternoon starting around 3, it localized down to my lower right quadrant (pinkie on top of pelvic bone, thumb towards belly button, pain is pretty specifically 4 fingers "in" towards the midline), hurts to move/touch/cough. I've taken gas-x and ibuprofen with no change. Mild fever. Sooooo.... if it gets worse during the night we'll call my MIL or mom to come watch the sleeping girls and head to the hospital. And if it still hurts this specifically/intensely in the morning we'll go to the dr or the ER. But I'm really hoping it's just an insanely persistant gas pain, you know? Or some residual food poisoning thing. I need it to be that "good reality". So I'd love a few supporters in that view!
Clay please go and get checked. Sending you good vibes!
post #91 of 596
Clay

Also, hoping you are feeling better DoK (that kind of nosebleed sucks!)

And welcome and honeylilac. Checked out the thread you mentioned. You sound like a very strong lady and I am sure that you will make things work out in the end for you and your family, whatever path you choose, as hard as the choices are. I'm sorry it is such a difficult time for you.

unschoolin, that is rough, dealing with the health worries with your dh. It must be so very stressful for both of you, with the family history, etc. My own dh has bp issues and some other health stuff and sometimes it scares me how much I just need him to be ok and how much I want to be able to find the magic thing (diet, exercise, meditation, energy work, whatever) that will make it better for him. I think some others on this thread are in that place too, with worries over SO's health issues....

Long story, but I am sure that there is some link, for my dh, between diet, and his immune system/liver function and his bp. He also gets cold/flu sick and loses his voice when he does, and has some difficulty breathing (borderline asthma.) I just wish I knew where the knot was to begin unraveling it, and also that I could *make* him eat better, avoid certain otc meds, and excercise more. That's just not how our marriage works, though.

Sorry, went off on that more than I intended!

Seriously, I think I will probably map taking a couple of Reiki courses, just because I want to be able to have a tool like that that I can use to help him (and other family and friends...)


Feeling a little migrainey -- I'm not a relaxed driver, but drove back 4 hours from spending the weekend with dh, unpacked the car, did laundry, fed boys.. time for sleep, and work in the morning, though there is much else that I'd love to respond to.

Thanks for all the TM conversation, in particular. I'm in flux over several issues and I'm refusing to worry about being in this state. I figure it is part of the process and I'll be in a better place to know what I want/need to work on after the 14th.

Aurora watch tonight! I can't leave the boys to go away from the streetlights and chase borealis, though I'd love to get out into the dark on my own. I think I saw a streak of light from my backyard. That'll have to do me for now!
post #92 of 596
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Originally Posted by wombatclay View Post
DD1 is FIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday to your little one

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Originally Posted by unschoolinmom View Post
For two weeks now we have take his blood pressure once a day and if it's still high, he's going to be put on blood pressure medication at only 28 years of age
Sending healthy vibes to your DH.

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Originally Posted by saphire View Post
honeylilac- I read your post in single parenting. I am sorry you are in such a tough situation. It sounds like you have realistic expectations either way you choose to go. I am pro-choice btw. Good luck


Redveg- the 14th is sorta set in stone. You want to use the Aries New Moon energy. Not before. You will have a window from the 14th for a couple days to get a TM done. You are EST aren't you? ET for the new moon is 7:29 am. So technically that is the earliest time you would want to start. ( PST is 4:29 am) The sooner we get our TMs done is better ( I'm pretty sure it's because we want to use that NEW moon energy, but as long as they are done by the full moon on April 28th we are alright. Somebody correct me if I'm wrong.)


Thanks for the TM info. I need to catch up over there

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send me some luck, k? I may have appendicitis,
, how are you Clay? Hope you are feeling better.

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Aurora watch tonight! I can't leave the boys to go away from the streetlights and chase borealis, though I'd love to get out into the dark on my own. I think I saw a streak of light from my backyard. That'll have to do me for now!
I have never seen the Aurora. Must be awesome. My cousin many years ago in a naming ceremony named me after the Aurora, I have always wanted to see them. One day
post #93 of 596
Clay- Please update when you can. I'm hoping you are ok!!

One thing they ask people to do when appendicitis is suspected is they ask you to jump up and down a couple of times. If it hurts to do that, you need to go to the ER immediately.

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DoK- How are you feeling?
My nose is sore but I haven't had another bleed so far.
post #94 of 596
DOK- Must be hard to not blow your nose or even itch it, if it hurts. *hugs*

Clay- Sending healing to you this morning!

TM- I have some very specific images running around my head- Much of it has to do with new ventures and letting go of old ventures. One area I really want to work on is time and money management.

Unschoolinmom- how is dh doing?

Today is rainy, so my plan to clean the porch and stain it is off, so instead I will organize and clean the hall area.
post #95 of 596
Heyla all! Still here!

We had stacks of info about appendicitis thanks to dd1's hospital visit, and the general vibe was "rupture in the first 24 hrs of symptoms is really rare" so I felt ok waiting till morning if things didn't get worse. My fever stayed very low grade, the pain remained intense but not worse, and this morning I feel like I was kicked by a mule in 6 inch heels (very localized painful spot about the size of a silver dollar) but it's much less painful than it was. Sooooo.... still keeping a watchful eye on things, but hopefully this is just a funky last gasp of the food poisoning. I'll keep everyone posted though and I have dh calling in to check on me every hour or so.

We actually know several people who have had their appendix out and oh for the glory days of single adulthood! When I spoke with dh's cousin he was like "well, it hurt and I kept hurling so I went to the er and there it was". While Mike and I were trying to figure out how to manage the kids, and whether our insurance would cover another ER visit (our insurance doesn't cover convenient care/walk in triage visits at all, and only covers ER visits if you are admitted or have pre-approval, but I had a pre-approval for my fall and they rarely give more than one "ok" per person/per year... we called the hospital nurse line and their protocol is blood work then ultrasound and that would be out of pocket if not admitted! Ouch!), and care for Tor, and all that craziness. I adore my kiddos but I miss the ability to just "look after" myself, you know?

DoK- I'm glad your nose feels better! Hopefully this will be a long term fix!
post #96 of 596
checking in to sub and say hi. I never did make it past about page 25 last month

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You're over 40. You've grown your "not-give-a-shit" bone Happy birthday!
So that's why 41 wasn't that big a deal Happy Birthday SunshineJ and congrats on joining the 41 in 2010 club!


DS2 turns 5 this month. What happened to my baby?

good health vibes to everyone that needs them. welcome to the new folks. gotta run, time to do some work.
post #97 of 596
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send me some luck, k? I may have appendicitis, and I CAN'T have appendicitis right now! I had a stomach ache this afternoon starting around 3, it localized down to my lower right quadrant (pinkie on top of pelvic bone, thumb towards belly button, pain is pretty specifically 4 fingers "in" towards the midline), hurts to move/touch/cough. I've taken gas-x and ibuprofen with no change. Mild fever. Sooooo.... if it gets worse during the night we'll call my MIL or mom to come watch the sleeping girls and head to the hospital. And if it still hurts this specifically/intensely in the morning we'll go to the dr or the ER. But I'm really hoping it's just an insanely persistant gas pain, you know? Or some residual food poisoning thing. I need it to be that "good reality". So I'd love a few supporters in that view!
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Heyla all! Still here!

We had stacks of info about appendicitis thanks to dd1's hospital visit, and the general vibe was "rupture in the first 24 hrs of symptoms is really rare" so I felt ok waiting till morning if things didn't get worse. My fever stayed very low grade, the pain remained intense but not worse, and this morning I feel like I was kicked by a mule in 6 inch heels (very localized painful spot about the size of a silver dollar) but it's much less painful than it was. Sooooo....Proxy-Connection: keep-alive Cache-Control: max-age=0 till keeping a watchful eye on things, but hopefully this is just a funky last gasp of the food poisoning. I'll keep everyone posted though and I have dh calling in to check on me every hour or so.

Glad to see that you're still here, can you call around to some of the Urgent Care type clinics to see if they charge less for an ultrasound than the ER and if they can diag. appendicitis there....or would they send you straight to the ER anyway. (I'm sure the one by my house would just say , go to the ER but I know I'd call them anyway)

I was having the same pain yesterday, but no fever or other bad feelings, and I didn't have any more Gas X LOL For me it's dehydration that causes that pain. I started working out again, and didn't drink enough water. I drank a lot, but I can never remember that once I think I've had enough I need to have 2 more glasses otherwise I feel crappy (ha). I ran on Friday, drank enough Friday night and Saturday, but then I cut the grass (which is quite a work out ) on Sunday, and did not keep drinking water Sunday night....so I really felt it yesterday.

I hope you're feeling ALL better!!
post #98 of 596
DOK---I hope you're back to normal soon. I'm prone to nosebleeds but nothing like the one you described. Very scary and I'm glad you're ok

Clay---I hope the pain goes away. And congrats on your kiddos birthday! Time flies by so fast!

honey--I responded in your original post and wish you the best of luck no matter what path you choose

Hope everyone feels better and has a great day!
post #99 of 596
Shadowmoon- totally forgot, but dd1 is obsessed with giraffes this past week! She made a paper model on her own (she re-tweaked it after we visited the San Diego Wild Animal Park/Zoo page) and has been badgering DH to help her build a robotic giraffe. She actually did make a giraffe out of knex yesterday but it's "not big enough".
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clay: glad to hear your feeling a bit better. that whole insurance thing sucks so bad. it makes me mad and it isn't even happening to me. lol even with "good" health insurance we paid $8000.00 out of pocket last year for various stuff. makes me mad. grrrr!

ok, i am in a mood today. took ds#1 to a class and that went fine, the little boys and i hung out at the beach then got cookies at a bakery. but i am just SICK TO DEATH of taking care of everything at home. i am sick of doing the laundry, the dishes, cleaning up all damn day long, and i am tired of doing all the cooking. blaaah. the bathrooms need to be cleaned, the house needs to be straighted up... i just don't want to do it AGAIN! agh! i feel all full of angst.
dh and i talked last night, he is stressed about his PhD stuff coming up, he has all this reading. i feel overwhelmed with taking care of everything here, and working part time. i am tired of being stressed about money and worrying about food. dh isn't hip on the WIC thing, although he thought the Angel thing sounded good. sometimes i wonder if it was a good idea to move here and buy a house. i feel so trapped. most days i am ok, them BAM, it hits and i am so worried about everything. it gets overwhelming.
i called about our heating oil and it seems we used up almost all of our credit, which i don't get. we got 1000 gallons and i have calculated we only used 550. but they say we have a credit of $380, not 450 gallons (which is HUGE difference) so i have to go dig thru all of our paper work and see what is up. i am just so tired of feeling like i am fighting just too keep my head above water, and trying to be all happy and calm and patient with the kids. and every time i turn around they want something or the need something (like shoes, bras, pants, the list just goes on and on) and i feel like i am forever robbing peter to pay paul. a couple months ago i had to only make a partial mortgage payment, which i know is bad, but we need to eat and i was cancelled alot, so now i am scrounging to make that up. fingers crossed that will all be fixed this month. PLUS we owe over $600.00 in state taxes. ugh! where the hell do i get this money from? why did we leave jobs that payed better for this stress? i mean i love that we are together more, but the pay cut was so huge we lost almost half our income. and it seems like we are constantly having to fix stuff here. plus dh just "needed" a car, so 6 months ago he got one, which i made him promise the payments wouldn't be over $250.00, well they are not, but it is for 5 years. 5 years!!! agh!
ok i am done, just feeling a bit overwhelmed. i hate when getting a cookie at the bakery stresses me out this much. i want to enjoy the damn cookie! lol

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