I don't know what your past experiences are with Christianity, but for what it's worth, I offer you this. Try Jesus. Christianity itself can be a lot of trouble, a lot of expectations, speculations and opinions. Christianity is not Jesus, however, and the power and life is through Him and it is really real.
I came to know Jesus seven years ago. I was at the end of my ability and hope, I had little desire to go on, with no idea where I was going. I was angry and frustrated and I hated everything.
I was looking for a useful worldview and belief system that would answer my questions about life. One afternoon, as I held my Bible in my hand, the thought came to my mind: “Everything you want to know about how the world works is written is this book.” In seven years, I have not been let down or disappointed with the worldview presented therein.
Jesus is my source of comfort, direction, instructions, purpose. He gives me strength and reason to go on, and He makes me able to do what I otherwise could not. He hears my stress and sorrows, my pain and worries, and my anger and frustration - even when it is directed at Him. He gives me advice and direction, and helps me to understand and be patient.
This is a very quick summary of seven years, but it is my experience. I suggest for you to begin where you are comfortable. Ask Jesus to meet you, to help you. Journal your thoughts, anxieties, and prayers. Seek him and He will be found by you.
Here are some verses for you:
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28-30
The LORD also will be a refuge for the oppressed,
A refuge in times of trouble.
And those who know Your name will put their trust in You;
For You, LORD, have not forsaken those who seek You.
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13