THAT'S IT I LIED, I WANT TO BE PREGNANT NOW!!!
I swore I wasn't going to get like this. Last time DH and I were TTC, I became, well, a little obsessed. We had a m/c after ttc for several months, and it kinda sent me over the edge of TTC sanity. Dh was totally on board, he told me after the fact that he kinda wished we had taken a more personal approach to TTC rather than the "I'm ovulating, drop your pants" all business style that [s]we[/s] I did. We ended up having to go through IVF so it didn't matter all that much, but it would have made the time we did spend naturally TTC a little more enjoyable.
I am not willing to make that mistake twice though, so I have taken a VERY lackadaisical approach this time. I am here to say, I CAN'T do it anymore. I WANT A BABY! I have the fever. I am willing to bd during a spat at O time at this point. I mean it is for the greater good right? I am NOT willing to go several night with out doing THE DEED after a + OPK like we did this cycle. I want both of us to commit to this 100%. DH seems to be commited, I am just afraid that if I totally commit myself I am setting myself up for failure because I am not so sure we can afford IVF this time, if it come to that.
Side note and for the record: We are infertile but totally capable of getting pregnant on our own. We have nothing SOLID stopping us, like blocked tubes or no sperm. I have thick shells (zona) on my eggs and my dh has low morph but still not VERY low, if that makes sense. Dr told us we could conceive on our own but it might take a REALLY long time, if ever.
Anyway, I am here to say. Next Month IS Game Time!!!! No more of this "whatever" BS. I AM GETTING PREGNANT! Oh and if Stevi has anything to say about it, I already am.

Thanks for allowing me the time to me give myself a pep talk. You ladies are the best!
P.S. I forgot to mention that it doesn't help that 3 women who did IF stuff/pregnant with me the first go round are "surprise" pregnant right now. I'm happy for them, but OH SO JEALOUS all at the same time.