Hey Mommies! I thought I might jump in. I have a 3 year old and we are expecting #2 in Dec.
After my last pregnancy, tons of weird things started happening. I was weepy, of course, but nothing worse than the pregnancy. But the really weird part. I was hearing things. Voices, to be specific. And seeing things sometimes. I told my psychiatrist (who is more on the non-interventionist side of the spectrum) and she told me it was totally normal, but rarely talked about. I thought I had post-partum psychosis or something. She asked if they told me to do things, of course, no. It was like I was picking up radio signals of other peoples conversations. Very rarely would they directly address me. This went on until about 6 months post-partum. Very odd. My DH is muslim and he thinks that women who are pregnant or are post-partum are closer to the "spirit world," but Im a non-believer in just about everything. This did make me wonder.
Now, on the topic of using meds. I havent had to take any meds for depression, all though my moods are less than regular, and sometimes Im down right miserable! I feel like its not bad enough to inhibit my survival. My sister, however, has been on meds since she was about 14. On and off, on and off. Finally, 6 months ago she stopped using them. They never really made her feel better and they tended to make her even more violent and extreme. She is like a totally different person right now. I cant believe after basically not having a sister for so many years, I finally have her back. I think some people just dont respond well to brain meds. She is clearly one of them. Now, that being said, she still says shes depressed pretty much every morning and cant think of a single reason why life is worth it. But once she gets out of bed, or someone calls and invites her out... or she has acupuncture, or therapy, or dance class... then she perks up a good bit.
So, I think it really depends on the person... but in my family, not a single person on those medications has gotten better. In fact, most of my family members have gotten worse after extended periods of use and only came out of it because they stopped using them. Its enough to make me never want to use them. Its hard to feel sad all the time! Im so sorry for anyone going through that. Make sure you are not self-sacrificing to the kids too much! Mommy needs to take care of mommy before the babies! I use to forget that and just do everything for my daughter. Now, I need me time! Or I will go crazy!!! I hope everyone dealing with PPD feels better very soon and can find a sense of calm in their life!
Hugs,
L
