I hope this is a comforting place for you to find encouragement!
i have recently had a couple people ask me how I am doing.
I figured I would throw in a little update.
I am still lost but slowly finding myself again.
I'm still blogging quite often, you can find my blog here http://mamajamajenny.blogspot.com/ or just search for "megan sudc blog"and you will find us that way.
Life is hard without her but I'm healing as well.
Im currenlty 20 weeks pregnant, after a missed miscarriage in Sept 2010 and another in December 2010. Due again, in September, quite possibly on Megan's due date.
Husband is stil home thankfully. Emily is thriving and loves school. She has her moments and they are the hardest to deal with. Explaining to a 6 year old why you don't really know why shes the only that has lived is not a fun conversation. Everything is hard but I'm trying. Its been over a year. I miss her just as much as I did then, that will never stop.
Learnign to accept this pain so you can move on, learning that can live again and learning that the guilt does ease up is some of the hardest lessons i have ever learned.
So thats it, we are still here, still alive. Always hurting but healing as well.
Thank you to those who thought to write and see how I am :)
Jennifer - I just read your story and I am so very, very sorry for your loss of your precious daughter. Your family will remain in my thoughts and prayers for healing peace, and a healthy pregnancy.
I wish I could send you some healing, and peace, and to all those who have lost their children.
My prayers and blessings go out to you and your family.
I just wanted to tell you that I read your blog. I am so very very sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. I am also so very happy to see that you have a new little one!! And I am glad to know that Emily is doing well..of course she is with such a loving mother. I want you to know that I have stopped making mountains out of molehills because of you. I will cherish motherhood.
I read your blog long before finding you here, as well. I think of you and Megan often when I am putting my daughter down for her nap. Many blessings for you, mama, and for the beautiful spirit of your lovely daughter, Megan.