Hit an emotional/ physical brick wall head on!

[klocke]

Warning big time vent:
I am nearly 35 weeks and I am so over being pregnant. While my head knows that the longer these babies stay in the better, my body is beyond shot. And to make it worse I have to make it to at least 38 1/2 weeks or else my DH will not even be there for the birth (he has a previous work requirement that if he doesn't attend he will lose his job). I am bigger than I could have ever imagined, measuring about 46 cm right now and hurt all over. And since DH is at work all day I am still taking care of 98% of my normal responsibilities of having 3 kids under 5. My older two don't nap and I find myself drifting off on the couch only to wake up to them getting into something they shouldn't be in or making a mess that I have to clean up. I pee literally 5 times a night and just getting up to go to the bathroom is painful. I had to go to my local meat market yesterday and a lady made an off hand comment to the lady she was with about "Look at that ladies big belly, my God" and it took all the strength in my being not to turn around and say some unpleasant (and definitely not G rated) to her, LOL. I guess I just wanted to be able to enjoy my last pregnancy more and this time it has been completely unenjoyable from the extreme morning sickness the first two trimesters to the feeling of being 80 years old now. And I'm definitely not the type of person to sit around and do nothing so I am mentally having a hard time that my body is not keeping up with my daily chores and things that have to get done before we can bring home two babies. And the birth itself has been a roller coaster ride. When we started out (before we knew it was twins) I had a home birth midwife and planned a water birth like my last. Now I am ending up with a c-section (will be my first) and I am super disappointed in myself for that. The whole situation is too much right now. Just super frustrated I guess.

[Arianwen1174]

Big hugs! Wish I could help out in some way. Is there anyone around at all who could help out for even an hour a day so you could rest, or help out with laundry, etc? Anyone at all, even if it's not someone you're thrilled about? So sorry about the way the birth is turning out, I would be disappointed too. I hope you can remember to make it the best experience possible under the circumstances. I know, tough to think about right now. Hang in there, you're almost there!

[attached2mason]

I am 33 weeks (measuring 47) and found myself nodding through your post . . .I am soooo right there with you. Sometimes I just want to cry . ..I'm not used to feeling this hindered, this 'useless'.

Who knew getting up to pee or rolling over in bed could be so damn difficult? Ridiculous. I am also not a sit around kind of gal so I keep planning too much for myself and then paying the price. Today got up at 6 with my 5yo and did a bunch of prep for a blessingway I'm organizing for another mama - baked, cleaned, etc. I volunteered at our LLL booth for a trade show this afternoon, then walked around said trade show with a friend for 1.5 hours. I'm taking 20 mins right now to soak my feet and then I'm back at it - making food and prepping for the blessingway tonight. I'm totally insane.

I only have one child to care for atm . . .dont' know how you are managing with 3, kudos mama.

Right now I am pretty certain baby b is attempting an escape through the skin of my belly . . .or at least that is what it feels like. Any minute now I think my belly is just gonna explode

Sorry, guess this is my own rant .

Hang in there mama . . . just a few more weeks. I know that right now it feels like each day is torture so how can you possibly survive weeks (I feel the same way). That said . . . here's hoping it goes faster than you think it will. That's what I am counting on .

[Intertwined]

http://babyhayes5.blogspot.com/2008/...e-it-stop.html

That was me, at the end. I was MISERABLE. Absolutely miserable. And I even had it pretty good, all things considered. I think we all go through it. Hang in there Mama.

[Valerieg]

Vent away...we've all been there!

Like you the twins were my first c-section after two intervention-free births. I had to care for two children (I can't even imagine a third), one of which didn't nap, and I nodded through most of your post as well.

I was fortunate, miserable I was not, but I had PUPPP and it drove me crazy. I couldn't wait for the babies to be out so I could just.stop.itching!

To this day the nursery still isn't together, I haven't gone through clothes, and since it took everything in me to just keep up towards the end (and that was with help!) my house still isn't clean. But we're happy!

It is amazing how well things can go if you just leave it all go. The babies will be fine with just you, some diapers, and love. The rest will fall into place.

And, looking back, I thought the babies were easier in than they would be out and that was so not the case. For me the babies were much easier once they were out. Exhausting, sure, but not even close to as bad as I had imagined it would be. I'm just over eight-weeks PP now and each day gets easier and easier. Now if only they'd sleep longer than 2-hours each night and we'd be golden.

Hang in there.

[attached2mason]

Thank you thank you thank you Valerie!!! I needed to read that today. My mood is lighter already. Can't wait to meet these boys

[verycozy]

Originally Posted by Valerieg

And, looking back, I thought the babies were easier in than they would be out and that was so not the case. For me the babies were much easier once they were out.

Same here. I was *just* talking to another mom of twins about this. I was so miserable, reflux-y, hormonal, achey, tired, cranky and anxious the last few weeks, that I felt like taking care of two newborns was not so bad in comparison.

Good luck!

[Intertwined]

Amen to both Valerie and Karen. I was MISERABLE at the end of my pregnancy. Having newborn twins wasn't *easy* but dang, at least my body felt (mostly) normal. I could sleep and eat and pee normally and that went a LONG way towards feeling good.

[lexbeach]

The last few weeks of my twin pregnancy (weeks 35-38) were likely the hardest three weeks of my life! Every hour felt like a day. I was so miserable.

BUT.

Time did pass, my babies were born (so healthy! and big!), and I felt a million times better as soon as they were out. Life with twin newborns was incomparably easier for me than the end of the pregnancy.

You can do it. You will do it. You will be holding your babies so soon and this will all be a distant memory.



Lex