I saw and heard Bean's little heartbeat today!

Pure magic.

It was because I got real "sick" yesterday. At night, I got real dizzy, nauseated and a headache, but the dizziness was so strong it was the worst. I had to hold on when sitting still!
It didn't really pass, and my SO thought my pulse was a little low. But my o2 levels was fine (our little miss cotton ball button uses a pulseox 24/7, so we have several, so we checked me with one).
Anywho, I fell asleep, my SO was up all night watching me (lovely, sweet, wonderful man, so worried about me). And this morning he called the hospital, and they wanted me up there. It still was as bad.
My best friend came to pick me up with his car and take me, since SO couldn't leave the kids. (His 11, 13 and 15 yos. stayed at our house, so SO got some help too!)
And my best friend stayed with me the whole time, held my hand and was just there. I was scared. And they saw my low pulse, and added a low bloodpressure. But my blood work was fine. And it was probably just the low BP and pulse causing it.
And so we checked Bean too, and the tiny heartbeat was perfect! I'm 7 weeks tomorrow (from our guess work).
I filmed it for my SO. I had to wipe some tears. So did my friend, he got all touched too. He is the best.
Anywho, it was really good. But I'm also scared because it kinda makes it more real, so what if I loose Bean now?
Ah well, it wouldn't be any better without seeing and hearing it, so I'm glad I did.
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