I guess this is the place for this ...
I don't know what to do anymore & I need some words of encouragement - things I can't get from RL friends or family. I can't get it there, because everyone I know thinks of my husband as the funny/cool guy ~ they don't see what I have to deal with.
DH and I have been married for 6 years & it's been a coaster of highs and lows. I thought things were going ok ~ but after this weekend... I'm not so sure I can do this anymore.
He's in the national guard & his unit is in my hometown about 5 hours away. So, he left on Friday ~ I tried to call him when he should have gotten to town but got no answer ... he never did call me back or even shoot me a text message. Saturday... I get ahold of him at 8 pm for a 42 second phone call where he tells me he'll call me back after he eats supper... I wait ... and i wait.... and I wait. I started trying to call him back around 10 ... I mean come on... supper is WAY over by then .... nothing... he won't answer or return my calls or texts. Finally at 1:30 he logs onto facebook and posts some crap to his aunt about how he's been busy looking up parts for work - because she asked what was up to my status about being ticked off.
Does he think I'm stupid? He was out at the bar (they close at 1 here) ... If he planned on going... why couldn't he just tell me?? Why ignore me?
Today I call him and he picks up and hangs up... I get a text saying I'm working on a truck - i'll call you when I'm done....
Big SHOCKER ~ no call....
Now it's 8 PM and drill is done - I know because his SGT was talking to me on facebook. He won't answer the phone... won't text me... nothing... he should be on his way home so he can be at work tomorrow morning.
I don't know what to do... I'm confuzed... I'm hurt... I'm angry... I'm litterally in tears. I'm now 7 weeks pregnant with our 5th child and sick as a dog with ms & so tired I can hardly function but having to care for 4 children through it.
This is the kind of thing I've been dealing with for years... and I'm starting to think life as a single mom might be better than dealing with all of this over and over again.
I don't know what to do anymore & I need some words of encouragement - things I can't get from RL friends or family. I can't get it there, because everyone I know thinks of my husband as the funny/cool guy ~ they don't see what I have to deal with.
DH and I have been married for 6 years & it's been a coaster of highs and lows. I thought things were going ok ~ but after this weekend... I'm not so sure I can do this anymore.
He's in the national guard & his unit is in my hometown about 5 hours away. So, he left on Friday ~ I tried to call him when he should have gotten to town but got no answer ... he never did call me back or even shoot me a text message. Saturday... I get ahold of him at 8 pm for a 42 second phone call where he tells me he'll call me back after he eats supper... I wait ... and i wait.... and I wait. I started trying to call him back around 10 ... I mean come on... supper is WAY over by then .... nothing... he won't answer or return my calls or texts. Finally at 1:30 he logs onto facebook and posts some crap to his aunt about how he's been busy looking up parts for work - because she asked what was up to my status about being ticked off.
Does he think I'm stupid? He was out at the bar (they close at 1 here) ... If he planned on going... why couldn't he just tell me?? Why ignore me?
Today I call him and he picks up and hangs up... I get a text saying I'm working on a truck - i'll call you when I'm done....
Big SHOCKER ~ no call....
Now it's 8 PM and drill is done - I know because his SGT was talking to me on facebook. He won't answer the phone... won't text me... nothing... he should be on his way home so he can be at work tomorrow morning.
I don't know what to do... I'm confuzed... I'm hurt... I'm angry... I'm litterally in tears. I'm now 7 weeks pregnant with our 5th child and sick as a dog with ms & so tired I can hardly function but having to care for 4 children through it.
This is the kind of thing I've been dealing with for years... and I'm starting to think life as a single mom might be better than dealing with all of this over and over again.
