We're all ready, practically speaking. All our gear is up and ready to go, baby clothing washed, car seat installed, birthing team prepared, etc. We're setting up the birth pool tonight...
However, I'm not ready. Is that awful? I know this has to do with the fact that this is my first child, and I have no idea what to expect (beyond what others have shared).
A part of me is thrilled to be undergoing this amazing and literally awesome experience of childbirth. Another part of me is mortified I will chicken out and not be able to take the pain. (Not a good sign, considering I've been doing Hypnobabies home study since 29 weeks! Although I tapered off my practice sessions the last two weeks or so...)
And then there's the radical change to our lives. I remind myself that whatever good times DH and I have had to date, they will be even better with our child (albeit harder). But it's still daunting.
I'm sure all the BTDT moms out there are having a little laugh at me and my naiveté. That's okay. I'm suppose I'm askin' for it! What will be will be, as they say.
However, I'm not ready. Is that awful? I know this has to do with the fact that this is my first child, and I have no idea what to expect (beyond what others have shared).
A part of me is thrilled to be undergoing this amazing and literally awesome experience of childbirth. Another part of me is mortified I will chicken out and not be able to take the pain. (Not a good sign, considering I've been doing Hypnobabies home study since 29 weeks! Although I tapered off my practice sessions the last two weeks or so...)
And then there's the radical change to our lives. I remind myself that whatever good times DH and I have had to date, they will be even better with our child (albeit harder). But it's still daunting.
I'm sure all the BTDT moms out there are having a little laugh at me and my naiveté. That's okay. I'm suppose I'm askin' for it! What will be will be, as they say.
