This, I guess, is mostly a vent. I have no idea what I hope to gain in posting here. I'm in the process of being tested for cervical cancer. My doctor asked me at my appointment yesterday if I was wanting to have more children. I am 25 (last month) and have a 9 week old. If the results from this next round of tests come back bad, if I want to have more children I should consider trying to get pregnant right away before progressing to the next round of treatment (cone biopsy) according to my doctor.
I was planning on having more kids. I really, really enjoy bring a mother and the past 9 weeks have been amazing. I would be priviagled to do it again, but the timing isn't great. I love being a single parent but I wonder how different it would be with adding another child into the mix with such a short space between them. I am able to provide for my family's needs but we live very modestly and I had hoped to have a more stable income before having more children. In talking breifly with a family and friends, they've brought up concerns about my ability to care for two small children under five myself. While I've never had a moment of feeling overwhelmed or stress caring for my daughter so far, I'm beginning to question myself.
I'm scared, but not about the cancer, how will I know if I'm making the right choice. The choice that I won't have regrets about twenty years from now. I expected that I would have the option of having children into my mid to late thirties, and with further reading about my condition I realize that there is a good possibility that I could be getting a hysterectomy or a number of cone biopsy that would prevent me from conceiving or carrying to term. This could be my last shot.
I know that there's adoption. There's foster to adopt. These are options if I don't get pregnant again or decide that I do want a big family.
I *think* I do want to try to get pregnant again but it seems like a completely crazy idea. I'd likely have to wean my daughter some to start ovulating again, go through all that morning sickness and exhaustion from week 3-16 while caring for an infant.
I didn't expect this. Cancer I feel like I know how to handle, but my fertility? Totally blindsided.
I was planning on having more kids. I really, really enjoy bring a mother and the past 9 weeks have been amazing. I would be priviagled to do it again, but the timing isn't great. I love being a single parent but I wonder how different it would be with adding another child into the mix with such a short space between them. I am able to provide for my family's needs but we live very modestly and I had hoped to have a more stable income before having more children. In talking breifly with a family and friends, they've brought up concerns about my ability to care for two small children under five myself. While I've never had a moment of feeling overwhelmed or stress caring for my daughter so far, I'm beginning to question myself.
I'm scared, but not about the cancer, how will I know if I'm making the right choice. The choice that I won't have regrets about twenty years from now. I expected that I would have the option of having children into my mid to late thirties, and with further reading about my condition I realize that there is a good possibility that I could be getting a hysterectomy or a number of cone biopsy that would prevent me from conceiving or carrying to term. This could be my last shot.
I know that there's adoption. There's foster to adopt. These are options if I don't get pregnant again or decide that I do want a big family.
I *think* I do want to try to get pregnant again but it seems like a completely crazy idea. I'd likely have to wean my daughter some to start ovulating again, go through all that morning sickness and exhaustion from week 3-16 while caring for an infant.
I didn't expect this. Cancer I feel like I know how to handle, but my fertility? Totally blindsided.
