Thank you for letting me know that massage is from your past. That is what I suspected. So clearing that out of the way for me, I have to say that I am still seeing some form of healing modality for you. I am sensing some ideas surrounding this. One thing I'm hearing that is kind of funny is that you don't really like people as a whole (like you find them frustrating/aggravating more often than not), so you will work best having some kind of one on one position. Something that allows you to work with one person and have sort of an intimate relationship with them. Obviously I'm not talking about anything sexual. I just mean something where they might share personal details of their lives and you are affecting them in a very positive way. I will tell you that I keep seeing hands and I keep seeing them around clay like they are making pottery. I'm not totally sure if this is something else as in a hobby you should be doing, or if this is the career. You never know what might be healing to people. Art can be extremely cathartic for some people...like art therapy classes, or even just being around art or learning how to make art. I really keep seeing these hands and they are definitely molding clay. So I thought I would put that out there.
I hope this helps you find your path. Be open to whatever this might mean. Allow new thoughts and ideas to come into your head. Or maybe cultivate some thoughts you had once that you pushed away for various reasons.
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