I really can't stand BFing anymore. CAN'T STAND IT. DD is only 15 months.
She's always been spirited, even before she was born, and she's never been able to learn nursing manners. I've seen one or two threads by mamas with LOs as awful as mine (and i hate to phrase it so negatively, but its true), and it's hard to convey what torture it is.
Basically, she goes to daycare and has goat milk and regular food during the day. She is not interested in nursing until bedtime, and then she wants to be on the boob all night. Not nursing, just latched. Tightly. Here's how it goes:
Btw. 7:30-8:00ish, nurse both sides to empty while pinching my boob/stomach, digging in my belly button, kicking me in the stomach, scratching my face, pulling my boob with her teeth, pulling my hair, etc. If I pop her off and relatch it starts over. If I try to restrain her arms, she pops off and starts screaming/kicking harder. It's like she needs to pinch me. Maybe to stimulate let down, but I DON'T CARE. It hurts. She draws blood.
Btw. 8:30-10:30, she climbs all over me screaming and whining. If I offer boobies again, she just latches TIGHT and rests, but doesn't sleep. I unlatch, she screams. I try to hold her, she arches and flips to get out of my arms. I try to walk with her, wear her, rock, same, screaming the entire time. I mean loud, call CPS type screaming. Thank God the neigbors have kids.
Last night I finally put her in her crib (in our room) so that I could sort laundry and she couldn't hurt herself. She kicked the crib rails and hit her head on them. I've tried letting her play, but she just throws herself on the floor and screams because she's so tired.
Daytime sleep is the same as it's always been--2 45 min. naps or one long nap; we are dairy-free; no signs of reflux (hx of that, but it presented differently); have tried Tylenol in case it was her teeth. She does the same thing to Daddy.
The only thing that keeps her quiet letting her stay latched all night and I just can't take it anymore. Between the screaming and her toothy tight latch all night, I may be getting 4 hours of sleep, and that's really not enough for me. She starts screaming the minute I pop her off. Please help. What can I do but wean her?
Thanks for reading this far!
Casey
ETA: I just realized I called my DD awful, and of course she isn't. It's just that the stress of our nursing relationship is really affecting me.... She is really incredibly sweet and perfect 80% of the time.
She's the little girl from the storybook--when she was good she was very good, but when she was bad she was horrid.
She's always been spirited, even before she was born, and she's never been able to learn nursing manners. I've seen one or two threads by mamas with LOs as awful as mine (and i hate to phrase it so negatively, but its true), and it's hard to convey what torture it is.
Basically, she goes to daycare and has goat milk and regular food during the day. She is not interested in nursing until bedtime, and then she wants to be on the boob all night. Not nursing, just latched. Tightly. Here's how it goes:
Btw. 7:30-8:00ish, nurse both sides to empty while pinching my boob/stomach, digging in my belly button, kicking me in the stomach, scratching my face, pulling my boob with her teeth, pulling my hair, etc. If I pop her off and relatch it starts over. If I try to restrain her arms, she pops off and starts screaming/kicking harder. It's like she needs to pinch me. Maybe to stimulate let down, but I DON'T CARE. It hurts. She draws blood.
Btw. 8:30-10:30, she climbs all over me screaming and whining. If I offer boobies again, she just latches TIGHT and rests, but doesn't sleep. I unlatch, she screams. I try to hold her, she arches and flips to get out of my arms. I try to walk with her, wear her, rock, same, screaming the entire time. I mean loud, call CPS type screaming. Thank God the neigbors have kids.
Last night I finally put her in her crib (in our room) so that I could sort laundry and she couldn't hurt herself. She kicked the crib rails and hit her head on them. I've tried letting her play, but she just throws herself on the floor and screams because she's so tired.
Daytime sleep is the same as it's always been--2 45 min. naps or one long nap; we are dairy-free; no signs of reflux (hx of that, but it presented differently); have tried Tylenol in case it was her teeth. She does the same thing to Daddy.
The only thing that keeps her quiet letting her stay latched all night and I just can't take it anymore. Between the screaming and her toothy tight latch all night, I may be getting 4 hours of sleep, and that's really not enough for me. She starts screaming the minute I pop her off. Please help. What can I do but wean her?
Thanks for reading this far!
Casey
ETA: I just realized I called my DD awful, and of course she isn't. It's just that the stress of our nursing relationship is really affecting me.... She is really incredibly sweet and perfect 80% of the time.
She's the little girl from the storybook--when she was good she was very good, but when she was bad she was horrid.
BTW, thank you guys for being a safe place for me to share that.
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