Since a few of you asked about my RE visit, I figured maybe I'd give a little more of my background story. Here goes...
We always planned on inseminating at home, until DP got it in her head that IUIs were better. We then began a quest to find a doc who would inseminate. My GYN will do it, but she is not in the office all the time, and has no "washing machine" (ha!) or microscope, etc. She recommended 2 docs, both at infertility clinics. One doc had AWFUL reviews and would not do insems w/o Clomid. (WTF!?!) The other doc's staff seemed awesome, and we made an appt for a consultation.
But when we left the consultation, I was in tears. The NP we met with was very clinical, and told me that I was probably not fertile because I'm 35 and my cycles are 27 days. We told her that we didn't want to approach this process as infertility problem without indication of a true problem, and yet she insisted on talking about IVF as an option we should consider--even though I had never even tried to get pregnant at that point!!
Then, the kicker was that they wanted me to immediately schedule two tests: 1) the blocked tube test and 2) the saline in the uterus test. One of them would require a hospital stay. And THAT DAY, they called my pharmacy and ordered antibiotics for after the procedure, along with a 3-month supply of HCG shots! My pharmacy was calling me to pick up these meds, and I didn't even approve them! It was crazy. I felt like I was being bullied into a whole bunch of stuff, and not being listened to at all.
Honestly, if I ever DID have a problem, then I would trust these people to help me. But I resented being treated like I had a problem with no proof.
So after an intense therapy session, we decided to go back to the original ICI plan. That's really what I wanted all along, anyway. I wanted it to be nice and calm, and even to have the dogs lay in bed with me after the insem! That's what feels right to me.
Last month, which was the first try, we thought we got the timing perfect, based on BBTs. Going by the Brill book, we did NOT wait for the OPK+ because my cervix was open and the fertile CM was there. "Three signs lined up," as Brill said. However, in talking to a friend in-the-know, he said it sounded like we inseminated too early and really should have waited for that OPK+ (FYI, imsem #1 was on CD 13 at night. OPK+ was following morning,. Imsen #2 was later that day.)
Anyway, a friend of a friend referred us to an RE in NYC, who DP spoke to briefly. He said that we inseminated too early, and to come in for a consult and he would review everything with us and try to help us get the timing right. He agreed that we should try one more time at home, and if it doesn't take this time, then we should consider doing an IUI. And he would do an IUI without meds, which is great, even if it means a long drive for us.
Wow - I feel like I typed that all in one breath!
Meanwhile, like all of you, I'm also feeling tortured by all the pregnant women and new babies! My sis-in-law is 6 mos pregnant, and a good friend just had a baby. It seems like EVERYONE on Facebook is either pregnant or has a new baby.
Last night we went to babies r us for my sister in law. My mom came too, and even tho my bro and his wife are having a baby, my mom really wants me to get pregnant and she is just as impatient as DP and I! All three of us are convinced I will have a girl, and my mom was even picking up outfits at babies r us and saying "When you get pregnant, I'm gonna buy this for your kid!" She's not pressuring us, she's just excited. And she's been great when I've been upset and crazy. She actually had genuine infertility issues, so she really knows what it's like.
I know I just started this process, but I've been preparing for it for over a year. I got off all prescription drugs, lost weight, cut out refined sugar, etc. And now that I feel completely ready, I WANT MY BABY NOW!! LOL. I sound like a spoiled kid, but it's true.
So as O approaches for this month, I'm starting to feel some pressure again. I really want it to work this month. I'm thinking I have a good shot, because I really come alive in Spring and May is my favorite month! It feels right.
I'm thinking about all of you, and I will do some personal responses and cheer leading later tonight. In the meantime, know that I'm thinking about all of you and that I really appreciate this online friendship!