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post #21 of 54
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Originally Posted by Mama2Bean View Post
It seems like people in my support system are letting me down, one after the other, through either circumstances or just flaking out.
Me, too. I think some of it is just me (justifiably) expecting a lot right now, but some of it really is just my support people letting me down (like mom "forgetting" she was to babysit ds while I have a cervix check at the ob an hour's drive away. Hello! Wake up please! I reminded you TWICE!) It's disappointing.
post #22 of 54
Oh boy do I I've something to be cranky about. About 3 weeks ago I got pulled over by the cops for having a clear license plate cover on my car. I got the cover several years ago because someone stole the registration sticker off my car which I still got a ticket for even though I showed proof I had paid for
it. (before anyone tells me the trick to slice the sticker to avoid having people steal it, I actually did that and the idiot took all the little pieces and took older stickers under it as well so it looked like I had not registered in years). So I was in the car with my pregnant sister, and my prego self and my 2 yr old and the chp officer didn't let me off with a warning or anything even after i told him the above story. I got a fix it ticket. I removed the cover and went to my local chp office to have them sign off on it that I removed it and they did. He told me I would still have to pay a $25 court processing fee. Although it's a small amount I still feel i shouldn't have to pay a dime but whatever that's the way it goes. He told me to go to the courthouse and drop off my payment and that would be that. I get there and wait in a super long line for over 30 min. I can't stand for more than a few min before feeling light headed so I had my dad come and wait in line for me while I sat on a bench. When we made it to
the window you will never guess what happened. The chp officer that originally gave me the ticket had changed it after i left to a NON fixable ticket. The clerk showe me a copy where "yes" had been crossed out and changed to
no. WTF? How is this not fixable? So because of this man I have a bail of $174.00 and have to come back after I have the baby to schedule a court date that would be in 1-2 months from that date. I just left crying. This is so unfair just because he wanted to be mean. Now that trip there was a waste despite how hard it was for me to go. I have to make another trip while I'm supposed to be recovering to wait in that horrible line again to schedule a court date only to have to go back again... Leaving my newborn who I plan to exclusivly breast feed at home with my mother who will surely give her formula! (that formula bit is a whole other post) gosh idk why these things happen to
me. I know they happen to everyone but I get it so much. I've gotten horrible bad things happen to me for the last 3 years... Starting with losing my daughter. And as a single mom each one of these blows feels like it's x10. Sigh.
post #23 of 54
I don't feel great today- icky stomach again and sort of feeling like there's an egg in my esophagus. I hate that.

And as long as I'm in the whining thread, I'll just mention that I'm tired of super-pregnant sex. It's really just not as fun and I totally build it up in my mind only to be sorely disappointed with what actually happens... lol. I should add this is not because of any type of failure on the part of my partner, just the reality of "oh, that's not good/ that won't work/ that's uncomfortable/ he can't breathe/ i can't breathe/ I can't actually move like that anymore/ the baby's kicking and distracting me", etc, etc. We still do it, but it's just not what I want, KWIM? Lol. I guess I should shut up and be happy that we're still doing it, right?
post #24 of 54
OPM--I am so sorry about all that red tape crap.

HennyPenny--WTH with all the flakiness? I am so over it!

feministmama--I hear you about being uncomfortable, but yes, be grateful you are still doing it. My DH is so not pulling his weight w/the conjugal stuff. IDK why, maybe it's pg stuff, but I have been really disappointed the whole pregnancy!!!!
post #25 of 54
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Originally Posted by dkenagy View Post
Maybe I'll bring the baby I secretly birthed during the 15 minutes I wasn't on the phone this morning.

I know, right? I have taken to answering the "no baby yet?" question with "yeah, it's upstairs/in the car."
As they're looking at me, gigantically pregnant, with OBVIOUSLY no baby yet. That's the answer they get.

My biggest gripe is the carpal tunnel. I am SO. Over. Having a numb hand. Worst pregnancy complaint I've ever dealt with.
post #26 of 54
We SOOO need this thread! I agree that it's theraputic. Sometimes you just need to get it all out, whether it solves anything or not. You just feel better with it off your chest.

My baby girl is due in 11 days and I am so ready it's crazy! I want her here today, now, yesterday, etc etc, you get the idea. I am always so "zen" about "being the vessel" and "baby knows when to be born". Today Im like "what a total wad of BS, do I really say this to clients that my mentor and I work with??" LOL. Right now I feel sick of being an incubator, but then in the next instant I wonder "can I do this again?" "what if.... what if.... what if....". This is my 4th planned UC, and all my friends and family think that with this being baby #7 Im just going to drop the kid in mid squat then get back up and carry on with my dishes/laundry/maid duties. And if my MIL comes home from work (yes, she lives with us, *very* scary at times) and asks me just one more time "any contractions?" Im going to commit ritual murder. DH is totally less than supportive. I went on a mad cleaning rampage today and he says "uh, I dont think the baby really cares one way or the other if the baseboard heaters are clean". NOT the thing to say when your very pregnant, very crabby wife is on her hands and knees in "clean freak" mode.GRRRR. Also tired of peeing 3-4times a night and finding no comfy spot in the bed! I woke at 5:30am this morning (and I am the farthest thing from a morning person) to ctx 7mins apart that lasted till 11am then came to a dead stop. Im just ready to see this baby! All my calm-cool-and collected zen BS has flown the coop and a possessed psychopath has taken her place!!

I just keep saying "11 more days" HAHAHA. Like that means anything to this little girl happily cooking away. Ive gone as late as 42wks+1 and never any earlier than 39wks, so no way of guessing...

Hang in there ladies. We'll get there.... eventually
post #27 of 54
I am so, so, so sorry that everyone here feels the same way I do and so, so, so happy that everyone here feels the same way I do. LOL

How's that for end-of-pregnancy hormones?? At least, this BETTER be the end.!
post #28 of 54
Thank you for this thread. I was just about to post one of my own, but now can just relate with all of you. Am feeling a little better now after reading the posts, but overall still SO frustrated.

So, this whole waiting for true labor thing is driving me nuts! I'm sure it doesn't help that this is my first, I have no idea really what to expect, and I'm now 40w+4. The mw stripped my membranes yesterday afternoon & I almost immediately went into contractions which were consistent most of the evening at about 15 min apart. I did everything she said - relaxed, got a good night's sleep (thanks to wine & Benadryl per mw suggestion). Got up this morning to find my mucous plug. Contractions were down to 30-60 min apart. Still optimistic that today could be the day. Rested, walked, ate... and then things picked up this afternoon -- contractions 7 mins apart for an hours. Lots of "show". Then they taper off again (15 min apart). My back was killing me so I took a bath & now I got nothing. Maybe 1 an hour.

I'm trying to remind myself that this is a normal thing and it will happen when it happens, but I just want it to be go-time already! And, my crankiness has kicked in too. The little guy keeps doing head-butts to my cervix & I just want to say "OK body, why don't you help him out a little with some contractions".

OK, I feel better getting that out. I'm going to try to relax the rest of the night & will continue eating this very large bowl of pineapple that's in front of me as I wash it down with some RRL tea Hope everyone else feels better. Thanks for letting me vent
post #29 of 54
Oh yes, I'm trying to remain very zen... of course, I checked my cervix tonight and I am now 4 cm. Yes, 4 cm. I have never been dilated AT ALL prior to real-no-questions-asked labor, so I'm a little nervous... I have gone from 2-3 cm to delivered in 1 1/2 hrs, so I'm really on edge with my husband working nights all week... I'm nervous that by the time my stupid, frustrating BH ctx turn into something REAL and I become convinced of their "REALNESS", call my husband and have him drive 25 min home, then try to get back in the car and drive 25 min to the hospital.... heck, even if I become convinced and call someone else to drive me in... I don't even want to think about the possibility of having this baby in *my* car, much less SOMEONE else's car!!!
Of course, of my 4 labors, 2 were inductions and the other 2 started in the middle of the night. One of those middle-of-the-night labors was only 3 hrs from first ctx to delivered... nervous! I wish my hubby could just take the rest of the month off!
post #30 of 54
Thread Starter 
Wow, this may be the most posted on thread I have ever done, lol. Too much zoo and new stroller action yesterday has me in awful pain this morning. Which is a doulbe whammie as FIL asked me last night if he could take DD this morning to give me a chance to finish my final nesting bits. And now I hurt so bad that I am not going to be able to do much of anything. Bah.

MY GBS test results should be back today so I am anxiously awaiting those, as I lots a second round of mucus plug last night and am getting nervous. Fingers crossed for negatives.
post #31 of 54
I am so glad I am not the only one in pain right now....

I feel like my front pubic bone is about to split in two....and the pressure is horrible...

And on top of that the roofers were here again till 9:30 at night...and eldest is totally attitude because of short cycled on sleep.
post #32 of 54
I have been in a GREAT mood with getting sleep thanks to no contractions and BH....then today happened.

Yuck. It's 100 here and I'm losing my mind!

MW appt not so good...now I have ketones in my urine and I was told to eat MORE MORE MORE.....ugh I don't even feel that hungry and I am eating three meals a day plus a snack or two.....last weeks appt I had LOST 2lbs...and this week I gained nada.....I am SO used to gaining 2-4lbs a week and being MAD hungry in my last weeks of pregnancy but this one I'm just not into food. So now I need to start getting in more protein because well I'm due in 2 weeks and she said I can't have my body starving at the moment I'm trying to start nursing.


So I'm irritated with my body...hot and moody.

My who-who area is in PAIN...my bones are killing me...and her but has stretched my skin tender again....nary a BH in sight for 3 days now....I have to drink 100oz of water a day...watch my iron intake because it's still low....on top of all the other.

2 weeks till my due date and I just know she'll be late just to make me even CRAZIER.


Ok now I have to go cook dinner, get the boys ready for soccer practice and find clothing that will not bake me while I sit outside for 75 minutes with them. Oh and wait I've only had 64oz of water today so I need to get on that too.
post #33 of 54
My day started out pretty good, but I just got crabbier as it went on.
I have come to terms that I am now a psychotic-freak-woman until this LO arrives and people will just have to steer clear. LOL. No more peaceful zen-couch-folded-hands-waiting-for baby crap for me anymore. Heck, maybe thats zen in itself in that I accept im not? LOL I dunno, too confusing for my preggo brain. Anyways... I had an OB appt today and was hoping for some good news when he did a cervix check since I was a 3 last week and had a good solid 5 1/2hrs of ctx 7mins apart the other day as well as losing my mucous plug before they petered out. So he checks, even though he says there's no real need to, (he's much more hands off than the other OB that tried to scare me with "low fluid" and "super small for dates") and I am barely at 1cm and that was the external os, internal is closed, cervix is high, babe's head is high. WHAT??? I was at 3cm last week with no BH's at all, and after all yesterday's nonsense it CLOSED my cervix and sent it running for the hills????? GRRRR. I know that with this being baby #7 for me this doesnt mean much. Things could happen in the blink of an eye, or there may be no changes at all until labor kicks in. Still really frustrating tho!!!.
Im *still* waiting on packages of stuff to come in the mail that I ordered almost a month ago, DH is *still* being an unsupportive/unsympathetic butt-hole and the 6kids are driving me batty!
Please little girl, come as soon as you can or I may be giving birth at the looney bin!
Ok Im done. Hoping for a better day tomorrow. Hope it's good for all you other mamas-in-waiting too!
post #34 of 54
I don't even feel guilty for my bad behavior anymore. Does that mean I've turned a corner? LOL

I snap at everyone, including my dear children and my husband... maybe I feel a TEENSY bit bad about that, but why can't they all stay out of my way??! I have ZERO patience and I feel like I am constantly on the verge of tears, even though I am NOT a cryer... I'm mad at myself for feeling so fed up with everything since I'm just 38w5d and I've been more than 41w pregnant before... but, I just don't care enough, I guess. I go into the bathroom for one of my 247 daily pee breaks and just get pissed that nothing is going on... no new mucus chunks, no water breaking, no spotting... just these ridiculous, erratic BHs that are so painful now, pushing the baby's giant noggin up against my poor, sore cervix and pulling on my very sore round ligaments... *sigh* I'm SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO freaking DONE! And part of me feels like I'll be pregnant for just as long as I was with the first two (41w), maybe LONGER.........
I'm also very bored. NOTHING can hold my interest for longer than a few seconds. I can't get engaged with playing with the kids, can't find a single thing I have any interest in on TV or the net--I find myself sitting at the computer, staring at my FB homepage, waiting for someone to post something interesting... LOL It would be funny if it wasn't so sad & true!
I don't know what is going to happen to me or my family if I have to be pregnant another 2+ weeks. I shudder to think. Already, the 7 yo is making lunch pretty much daily because I just don't WANT to and the kids have watched more Sprout in the last week than probably in the previous 3 months!
I'm also getting pissed that this baby isn't coming during this part of my husband's work rotation (nights). It would be perfect for him to take off these nights and then go back to work on days. Instead, if I continue to be pregnant past next week, he'll end up being off on his days and it'll be time for nights when he goes back. And that would SUCK big time... who wants to be ALONE with 5 kids for 13 hrs at night for days in a row... a 7 yo that has frequent nightmares, 4 yo that rolls into the wall almost nightly (results in waking/crying/consoling/patting back to sleep) and a 2 yo that must be touching me in order to continue to sleep PLUS a newborn??!!?! ugh. EVERYTHING SUCKS. Everything sucks. There. I said it!
post #35 of 54
I got a great night sleep the night before last. Though that meant my Zen would return.

Last night, I bit the heads off of every single soul in my house, including my dogs, just for spite. I then laid in bed, bawling, literally bawling and sobbing at the hormonal fluctuation and how frustrated I feel. "Frustrated" pretty much sums it up-although I can't tell you what I'm frustrated over. Just walking around frustrated and aggravated over it-some imaginary "it." ????? And guilt. Physically I feel damn good, best pregnancy so far. Why I feel aggravated and frustrated in the last 24 hours, I've no clue? I'm having a lot of BH's but nothing to write home about. I'm certainly in better shape really than most on the board as far as feeling physically really good. No SPD, no massive pelvic pain, no out of control heartburn...really pretty good...

My emotions on the other hand are flipping ridiculous and I feel stupid for being so out of control. I keep texting DH to pls just shoot me like a sick animal being tortured that needs out of it's misery. Smart ass replies with sexual comments about shooting me... at least he thinks it's adorable. I can't stand myself.

This is sad...
post #36 of 54
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Originally Posted by dkenagy View Post
I am so, so, so sorry that everyone here feels the same way I do and so, so, so happy that everyone here feels the same way I do.
LOL!!!!! Me too!
post #37 of 54
It took me a few days to feel like posting this... I was just so irritated!

The other night I woke up to contractions. They weren't regular but they were coming every 2-5 minutes, so they were ANNOYING. I knew they weren't labor contractions, but they were painful enough to keep me awake. When DH got home from work, I told him about them and then he fell asleep rather quickly while I laid there, in pain and wishing they would either get organized or just stop.

After 2 hours, I finally was able to fall asleep. Then a little bit later, DS came into our room and I poked DH so he could take the boy back to bed. DH sat up and looked around. He was sleepy and confused. He picked up DS and said "Huh? Am I taking him to my mom's?"

NO YOU'RE NOT TAKING HIM TO YOUR MOM'S. DO I LOOK LIKE I'M IN LABOR? RUB IT IN WHY DON'T YOU?

Okay, so not really a big deal, but it irritated me just the same.
post #38 of 54
I can't even walk out my front door (literally my neighbors yell my name to tell me how huge I am!)
Can't avoid every single day hearing "When is your EXACT due date?" WHAT are you having? Where are you having the baby? ( "You shouldn't have the baby at home, the hospital is safer"...) Blah!! Also I'm sick of discussing my belly size.
Insomnia, braxton hicks that start and stop with pain. Constantly refilling the fridge and freezer.
Feels good to vent with women who understand!!
post #39 of 54
I'm tired of doing the "last big grocery shop" every week. Silly, I know, but we live out a ways and if I'm not going to the market for a few weeks after the birth I really have to stock up. Seems I've been stocking up and hauling home tons of stuff for weeks! I guess that means I'm eating more........ahem.
post #40 of 54
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Originally Posted by Crispie View Post
I got a great night sleep the night before last. Though that meant my Zen would return.

Last night, I bit the heads off of every single soul in my house, including my dogs, just for spite. I then laid in bed, bawling, literally bawling and sobbing at the hormonal fluctuation and how frustrated I feel. "Frustrated" pretty much sums it up-although I can't tell you what I'm frustrated over. Just walking around frustrated and aggravated over it-some imaginary "it." ????? And guilt. Physically I feel damn good, best pregnancy so far. Why I feel aggravated and frustrated in the last 24 hours, I've no clue? I'm having a lot of BH's but nothing to write home about. I'm certainly in better shape really than most on the board as far as feeling physically really good. No SPD, no massive pelvic pain, no out of control heartburn...really pretty good...

My emotions on the other hand are flipping ridiculous and I feel stupid for being so out of control. I keep texting DH to pls just shoot me like a sick animal being tortured that needs out of it's misery. Smart ass replies with sexual comments about shooting me... at least he thinks it's adorable. I can't stand myself.

This is sad...
Oh, this is so me the last few days. I was biting everyone'e head off yesterday, and I can HEAR it coming out of my mouth and while it's happening I want to slap myself across the face, but I just can't stop it. It sucks.

The funny thing is that I'm not in a hurry to have the baby, I'm frustrated and tired and cranky and got up this morning to pee, and my hand was so numb I had a hard time GRIPPING THE TOILET PAPER. I mean, frigging seriously...so I got back into bed and cried. Dh kind of woke up and asked what was the matter, and I wanted to punch him in the face. I'm perfectly fine letting baby hang out for a few more days but the numb hand is absolutely putting me over the edge. Plus, at my chiro appointment last week, after she asked how I was feeling, and I told her about my hand being puffy and the carpal tunnel still being an issue, she actually said to me "Yes, this is the first time I've seen you where YOU LOOK PREGNANT IN THE FACE."



PREGNANT. IN. THE. FACE.

How she didn't get knocked out, I'll never know. So now, when I look in the mirror, I see a puffy face and that's not helping my mood.

I'm trying to get back to my zen spot today, dh and ds are making me both a chocolate cake AND brownies, so maybe that will help. I ate four eggs for breakfast this morning and am thinking about hitting up some decaf just to help my sour mood. I don't want to be like this for mother's day.
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