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5/5/10 at 2:57pm
Maybe I'll bring the baby I secretly birthed during the 15 minutes I wasn't on the phone this morning.
I got a great night sleep the night before last. Though that meant my Zen would return.
Last night, I bit the heads off of every single soul in my house, including my dogs, just for spite. I then laid in bed, bawling, literally bawling and sobbing at the hormonal fluctuation and how frustrated I feel. "Frustrated" pretty much sums it up-although I can't tell you what I'm frustrated over. Just walking around frustrated and aggravated over it-some imaginary "it." ????? And guilt. Physically I feel damn good, best pregnancy so far. Why I feel aggravated and frustrated in the last 24 hours, I've no clue? I'm having a lot of BH's but nothing to write home about. I'm certainly in better shape really than most on the board as far as feeling physically really good. No SPD, no massive pelvic pain, no out of control heartburn...really pretty good...
My emotions on the other hand are flipping ridiculous and I feel stupid for being so out of control. I keep texting DH to pls just shoot me like a sick animal being tortured that needs out of it's misery. Smart ass replies with sexual comments about shooting me... at least he thinks it's adorable. I can't stand myself.
This is sad...