Nursing is making me crazy!

[see mama run]

I'm tandem nursing my dd(3.5) & ds (27 mos) and I am feeling more than done! My biggest trouble is the morning when I am jolted from sleep by everyone crying and clammering for "booba". I totally resent being woken up this way. I am increasingly grumpy first thing in the morning and want to cut out this nursing. It's making me into a bad mom! My children are mostly weaned during the day, unless ds takes a nap or gets hurt, he's too busy to ask to nurse and I have gradually weaned dd during the day. They both nurse to sleep and first thing in the am. I had planned to do CLW but I am resenting even this little bit of nursing more & more. I am wondering if just weaning my dd all together would help me stick out nursing ds a little longer. Any advice would be helpful. In my head I know that my reaction is making nursing negative and that I can't just keep feeling this way, but my heart is having trouble letting go. My dh says wean but then gets angry at me when I'm feeling grumpy because everyone's crying for nursing!

[PGTlatte]

I wonder if it might help you to make a change in the morning routine - say that they can have booba after you have xyz (had a shower, a bagel, tea, put on earrings...) whatever makes you feel like you have had some time to put yourself together first, before doing this for them....

I feel all kinds of out of sorts when one or both of our kids get up and start demanding things before I've had a few minutes to get myself together. When the youngest was about two I changed the rules and eventually had them understand that they would have to wait until I was ready to do things for them, and it has helped me feel soooo much better. Before I was resenting their early morning demands, no matter what they were.

[see mama run]

Today I realized that same thing it's not all of nursing that's getting to me it's the morning wake up! I feel like I'm thrown into the fire before my eyes are open! I decided that I'm going to nurse my ds as usual the first time he wakes, around 5/5:30, then I'm going to get up and have some coffee and go for my run. That way dh can do the shift when dd wakes and ds wakes again. Dd is usually so interested in what the other two are doing in the morning anyways that I think she'll transition fine. And we can nurse when I get back if she really wants to! We'll see how this works!