I lost my last baby at about 20 weeks gestation. Or rather, I was 20 weeks gestation when I realized that the pregnancy was not viable. I had been planning a UC as well.
I did go to the ER for an ultrasound, which confirmed my suspicions. At that point, the baby had been dead for some time, and tissue loss had occured. It was a super difficult decision for me, but I did decide to finish it all at the hospital. Because of the amount of decay at that point, I was put under general anestesia and had a D&E. It was not at all what I had wanted, but in the end I just wanted it all over with. The baby had died, and regardless of how she left my body, I knew I had done everything I could for her up to that point. I did feel uncertain about my decision for a few months, and questioned the decision I made when I was wracked with grief.
But I can tell you, 4 years later, I think I did the right thing. It wasn't what I wanted, but it kept me safe.
I'm not telling you my story to try and change your mind about what to do. I just wanted to let you know that I was in a similar situation, I made the decision to go to the hospital, and had a good outcome- both physically and emotionally. Much love and support to you.
I did go to the ER for an ultrasound, which confirmed my suspicions. At that point, the baby had been dead for some time, and tissue loss had occured. It was a super difficult decision for me, but I did decide to finish it all at the hospital. Because of the amount of decay at that point, I was put under general anestesia and had a D&E. It was not at all what I had wanted, but in the end I just wanted it all over with. The baby had died, and regardless of how she left my body, I knew I had done everything I could for her up to that point. I did feel uncertain about my decision for a few months, and questioned the decision I made when I was wracked with grief.
But I can tell you, 4 years later, I think I did the right thing. It wasn't what I wanted, but it kept me safe.
I'm not telling you my story to try and change your mind about what to do. I just wanted to let you know that I was in a similar situation, I made the decision to go to the hospital, and had a good outcome- both physically and emotionally. Much love and support to you.
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