I am finally ready to talk about my failed vbac.
It took exactly 3 weeks today to be able to type it all out as Im recovering and not so upset anymore.
It started with contractions about 10 min. apart for about 24 hrs on Easter weekend. We went to the hospital and I wasnt dilating, so I went home and they stopped. Two weeks later the same thing happened for 2 days and they stopped.
At my 40 week my ob said the baby was getting very large and he didnt want me to be continually contracting for days on end.
On April 23 at 41 weeks I started having major contractions radiating into my legs and pelvis about 15 min apart. that started at 9am. We went to the hospital and at 6pm the doc broke my water because he didnt want me to go home with strong contractions on 2 c/s scars with out being monitored. He said the baby had to come out and to trust him.
Then at 1am he said I was not dilating past 2 and he wanted to start with some "gentle pitocin". I very reluctantly let him and an hour after I started having a knifing pain in the left side of my incision. There was some bleeding and the baby's heartrate dropped a little so he got extremely nervous and said we have to do a c/s right now.
Tessa was born at 3:14am on April 24th.
My uterous was not ruptured, but the cord was around her neck.
The dr said my previous scarring was healed very well but that my uterous is thin.
I was so upset and traumatized until they pulled her out and I saw her and nothing in the world mattered.
My recovery has been slow with this being my 3rd c/s
The thing I am most upset about is not being able to bond right after she was born.
Fortunatly when I finally got her she latched on right away and my milk came in the next day.
She was 9.2 lbs and my biggest baby.
Ive been lucky enough to have help, but Im so angry about this c/s that I spend time being angry at the dr. when I should be recovering and forgetting about it since there is no point to agonize.
Having said all that....
I am so thankful that I have such a big beautiful healthy baby girl.
Life is good
It took exactly 3 weeks today to be able to type it all out as Im recovering and not so upset anymore.
It started with contractions about 10 min. apart for about 24 hrs on Easter weekend. We went to the hospital and I wasnt dilating, so I went home and they stopped. Two weeks later the same thing happened for 2 days and they stopped.
At my 40 week my ob said the baby was getting very large and he didnt want me to be continually contracting for days on end.
On April 23 at 41 weeks I started having major contractions radiating into my legs and pelvis about 15 min apart. that started at 9am. We went to the hospital and at 6pm the doc broke my water because he didnt want me to go home with strong contractions on 2 c/s scars with out being monitored. He said the baby had to come out and to trust him.
Then at 1am he said I was not dilating past 2 and he wanted to start with some "gentle pitocin". I very reluctantly let him and an hour after I started having a knifing pain in the left side of my incision. There was some bleeding and the baby's heartrate dropped a little so he got extremely nervous and said we have to do a c/s right now.
Tessa was born at 3:14am on April 24th.
My uterous was not ruptured, but the cord was around her neck.
The dr said my previous scarring was healed very well but that my uterous is thin.
I was so upset and traumatized until they pulled her out and I saw her and nothing in the world mattered.
My recovery has been slow with this being my 3rd c/s
The thing I am most upset about is not being able to bond right after she was born.
Fortunatly when I finally got her she latched on right away and my milk came in the next day.
She was 9.2 lbs and my biggest baby.
Ive been lucky enough to have help, but Im so angry about this c/s that I spend time being angry at the dr. when I should be recovering and forgetting about it since there is no point to agonize.
Having said all that....
I am so thankful that I have such a big beautiful healthy baby girl.
Life is good
that the birth did not go as you'd worked for, and i hope you do give yourself space to process and come to terms with all your feelings.
Do you still recommend the OB?
