Its been awhile...

[ShadowFox]

Hi ladies!

I haven't posted here in months.
I had my boys on February 23rd. It was a pretty traumatic emergency c section and I lost my oldest son.
My youngest son was in NICU for weeks but we've all been home for almost two months now. The bub will be 3 months on Sunday and hes growing strong.
I havent written their birth story yet and I dont know if I ever will.
I wasnt awake for it and only woke up days after they were born. I didnt get to meet my baby for a week.
Its been a long crazy journey but I'm blessed.
http://i52.photobucket.com/albums/g3.../babysmile.jpg
http://i52.photobucket.com/albums/g3...2/DSCN3268.jpg
http://i52.photobucket.com/albums/g3...CN0190Copy.jpg

[Juvysen]

OMG! I'm so sorry on the loss of your son!

Beautiful pics. Just gorgeous. Hope you're holding up alright after such a traumatic delivery.

[gardenmommy]

so sorry for your loss, i can't imagine how hard that must be. lovely pics! be gentle with yourself, and give yourself some space to heal.

[SeekingSerenity]

Oh my, your family is beautiful, absolutely gorgeous! I am so sorry for your loss, but know that your precious boy is simply beautiful.

[Right of Passage]

I'm so sorry that your sweet boy isn't with us, congratulations on the birth of your boys and new mommy-hood. Sending you healing and love from afar.

[Bethla]

[olive&pimiento]

What a beautiful baby! Your family is just gorgeous! I am so, so sorry for the loss of your son. It must be incredibly hard to be a new mom and grieving at the same time. I hope you find comfort here at MDC.

[cocoanib]

So sorry for your loss, Mama (((HUGS)))

I'm at work, so I'll have to take a look at the pics when I get home!

[judybean]

Oh my goodness -- your baby is so, so, SO sweet!!! I can't imagine grieving while celebrating all at the same time... I wish you love, healing and peace through this beautiful and amazing journey called motherhood.

[[hugs]]

[Amandamanda]

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[cocoanib]

just got to look at the pics. What a cutie family you have!

[ShadowFox]

Thank you ladies!

We have our ups and downs but I've made peace with it. I lost my own twin brother at birth (he was also the older twin). So I'm hoping that experience will help me with Ibraheem growing up without his Jibreel to romp with.

http://i52.photobucket.com/albums/g3...2/DSCN3390.jpg

Look at that face!!

We saved picture of Jibreel to show him when hes older.
They were identical.

[catchthewind]

Originally Posted by ShadowFox

Thank you ladies!

We have our ups and downs but I've made peace with it. I lost my own twin brother at birth (he was also the older twin). So I'm hoping that experience will help me with Ibraheem growing up without his Jibreel to romp with.

http://i52.photobucket.com/albums/g3...2/DSCN3390.jpg

Look at that face!!

We saved picture of Jibreel to show him when hes older.
They were identical.

I'm glad you've been able to make peace with it. My grandmother had identical twin boys and one was born stillborn as well. They had TTTS. She said the hardest part was that people expected her to just be grateful she had one healthy baby, since that's all most people have anyway, and she found it difficult to properly mourn the other one.

Your boy is beautiful, and so happy looking. =)

[Plummeting]

Congratulations on your beautiful boy!

I'm so sorry about the loss of your other son.

[mama kk]

My son was born on the 23rd as well!

Blessings on your baby, and I am sorry for the loss of your other son. I hope the healing from this continues to unfold.

[ShadowFox]

Originally Posted by catchthewind

I'm glad you've been able to make peace with it. My grandmother had identical twin boys and one was born stillborn as well. They had TTTS. She said the hardest part was that people expected her to just be grateful she had one healthy baby, since that's all most people have anyway, and she found it difficult to properly mourn the other one.

Your boy is beautiful, and so happy looking. =)

Thank you ladies!

I know how your grandmother felt. Thats why I didn't want to talk to anyone for awhile. I wanted to grieve my way. Now talking helps.

[mum5]

Sending you huge hugs. I cannot even imagine how you or your DH feel, and my heart goes out to you.
Thank you for sharing the pictures of your family. How beautiful!

[lizsky]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Its such a strange mix of emotions to celebrate life and mourn death at the same time, and my heart goes out to you as you work through it. Congratulations and best wishes to you and your beautiful family.

[engineer_mom]

[Deir]

I am so sorry. I was wondering about you. I hope you and your husband and your sweet baby are doing well. (((((((((hugs))))))))) and many thoughts.