I do not feel that you will be able to make it work. I think there is too much pain here. Don't be afraid to leave, you will be able to take care of yourself. Like I said in the other thread, it will be much worse if you stay. And what I meant by that was the emotional toll on yourself and your kids. You cannot stay somewhere out of fear of being able to support yourself, or about being on your own, or will there be step moms in the future etc etc. Your unhappiness is palpable. I believe you said yourself "I think about this almost everyday, every waking minute" (I'm paraphrasing, but it's close).
Don't fool yourself into thinking that it will be better to stay. It will not. The emotional abuse will not end, it will only get worse. Find some support before you make your move. Get some of your ducks in a row and it will help you not be so scared.*Please remember that all questions are answered here on the forum only. I do not accept private pm's for more information on your question.*
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