The wait is killer

[bcblondie]

I'm 8dpo today. No real definate signs that I'm preggo. I did an OPK as hpt today and yesterday. Today's is slightly darker so it gives me a bit of hope, but I know it doesn't mean much.
This wait is just killing me. I hate being in limbo. I hate how the days drag on. I hate obsessing and always feeling like "i could figure it out if I went online" and still don't get any answers. Of course.

Anyone else need to vent?

[forthekids123]

just waiting to O is driving me insane this month...

[bcblondie]

Ohh the wait to O is even worth than the 2ww I think. Because I often don't O. I'm on clomid this cycle. At least at the end of the 2ww you KNOW you'll get an answer.

[raindaisie]

Yup, I'm with you on this. I'm 6dpo. I took $tree hpt at 4dpo, 5dpo and this morning. Obviously all negative. Way too early. I keep telling myself I'm going to wait until the weekend to test again, but then I'll have a little sign (crampiness -- early PMS or gas pains or implantation???) and the next morning I'll think "well, you never know! maybe I'll be one of those women that implants early and has hcg running through her system at 5 dpo!" Yeah, nuts, I know. At first this month, I was certain THIS was the month. And now I'm convinced that I'm going to get AF next week. I'm trying to distract myself, and think "well, if not this month, maybe next month! or the month after!" But it's the not knowing that's driving me INSANE. And obsessing over every. little. sign. I know I'm not alone in this, but I wish I could push it all out of my mind and just let everything happen without wondering and getting all wrapped up in the possibility that there may or may not be something miraculous happening in my freakin' uterus right now. Sigh. So thankful to have a place to vent all of that. DH thinks I'm crazy and hid my FRERs until this weekend.

[bcblondie]

Well that's nice of him to hide the big guns so you don't waste them. lol. Go get more dollar stores! I buy cheapies online.

I believe in OPK's as hpts, so If I don't get some sort of progression on those, I'm not gonna bother do a hpt.

[Nanette56]

With you girls! 7dpo. I took fertility shots this month, and they were successful with four eggs released, did the IUI last Tuesday (DH's counts and everything were GREAT), and now I'm just hoping and praying that at least one of them managed to get fertilized and get where it was supposed to go!!! Testing Friday, and the wait is KILLING ME!

[bcblondie]

ooh stalking you! 4 eggs?! You're gonna have quadruplets.

[Nanette56]

lol nooooooo- Just want one very sticky bean!!!!!! I told DH he had four targets this month and he better not miss

[bcblondie]

Do you know what his count is?

[sarahkristin]

Raindaisie, your post made me smile because I could have written almost the exact same thing! Even down to the idea of cramps. I think "was that implantation? Am I tired because I'm preggo or just imagining things? Wow, I'm really irritable today! Preggo hormones or AF?! Aaaaaaaah! They are all signs of both!" I'm 8 dpo and it's only from lack of money that I haven't taken 3 hpts yet. I'm going to pick one up tomorrow but is 9 dpo too early? I think so.

bcblondie, how does an opk work as a hpt? I have plenty of those!

[Nanette56]

Originally Posted by bcblondie

Do you know what his count is?

It was 70 million postwash

[bcblondie]

Oooh! Pee on one!! The pregnancy hormone hcg and the ovulation hormone lh molecules look similar. Imagine that lh looks like a little man. And hcg looks like a man with a hat. Pg tests look for that little hat, so they only detect pregnancy. OPKs detect the little man so they can pick up both.

So, often, if you're pregnant, your opks will start progressing darker each day, and be fairly dark on the day you get a bfp on a hpt.

[bcblondie]

Originally Posted by Nanette56

It was 70 million postwash

Awesome! I bet they'll catch at least one!! I'm betting on twins. lol.

[Nanette56]

Awww thanks BC I hope so!!!

[sarahkristin]

Originally Posted by bcblondie

Oooh! Pee on one!! The pregnancy hormone hcg and the ovulation hormone lh molecules look similar. Imagine that lh looks like a little man. And hcg looks like a man with a hat. Pg tests look for that little hat, so they only detect pregnancy. OPKs detect the little man so they can pick up both.

So, often, if you're pregnant, your opks will start progressing darker each day, and be fairly dark on the day you get a bfp on a hpt.

Thanks for the description! I just went and peed on one. :-/ There was just a faint faint line. That doesn't seem like a good sign to me. Of course, I haven't followed the no drinking rules, so it was lighter in color than when I usually test, so I'll try again next time I have to pee.

[bcblondie]

Well, you're still early. So tomorrow if it starts gettin darker, that's a good sign. Because mine was faint today too.

[raindaisie]

Originally Posted by bcblondie

Well that's nice of him to hide the big guns so you don't waste them. lol. Go get more dollar stores! I buy cheapies online.

I have four more dollar store ones that I know I won't be able to wait to use. Although I'm telling myself now that I'll wait until the weekend, I KNOW that when I wake up tomorrow I won't be able to stop myself from taking one. Just for the hope that there may be the faintest of lines.

[bcblondie]

I know that feeling! That's kinda part of the reason I do opk's as hpts. They give you a bit of advanced notice. Like. I'm pretty positive that if I poas tomorrow morning it would be neg, because my OPK's arent near as dark as it was the day of my BFP on HPT with DS. Buuut now, instead, I'm antsy to pee on another OPK. lol. since todays was a little darker than yesterday's I'm sitting here wondering if it means something or if it's just normal fluctuations in LH.

[sarahkristin]

I think what has kept me from taking a hpt already is that I don't WANT to see a negative. I think it would totally dash my hopes even though logistically I KNOW it is too early. I know I'd see the negative and think "well, I guess this is it. AF should show up any second now." Last cycle I was still thinking that I was going to have a regular 28 day cycle and ended up going to 32 days. Seeing the negative when I was "late" was heartbreaking. Maybe I'll just wait until I'm like 30 dpo?

[bcblondie]

Well if you get to 30 dpo it's pretty safe to say you're pg. lol. But I knwo what you mean about the negatives. Stupid tests. Gettin us down, even though it's too early.