Weekly thread, Jun 6-13 - Page 10

[Pepper44]

to everyone having a hard time.

I ate an entire pan of brownies almost by myself in the past few days. Then I got terrible cramps, which I thought were slight indigestion from the brownies moving through. And I screamed at DH and threw something at his head because of course he was being...DH. Then I went to bed and cried myself to sleep, and woke up with my period.

Fun stuff. Crazy hormones, everybody take cover!

Mother Nature is cruel. My baby is totally breastfed, nurses all night long, doesn't take a pacifier, and still I'm ready to reproduce again at 7 weeks PP.

[jenfl]

Jess -- I'm so happy that you've gotten help. Like I said, I regret not taking that step with my first. It's worth trying -- if it's not helping, you can stop. But it might make things so much better.

Today, I did some thing I've never done in over 3 years of parenting. I put Sprout in the crib, choked out to DH that I needed a break, and closed myself in the bathroom to cry.

I hate breastfeeding. I probably would have stopped today, if Sprout was taking a bottle. He's once again losing his latch every suck. I'm beginning to think it won't get better.

Gotta go do the nighttime routine solo with an over-tired, screaming baby.

[crazyeight]

hugs jen and jess. i guess 6 weeks things turn around but then they also seem to have taken it to a harder level for a lot of things.

[silverspook]

DS2 has been fussing & crying & screaming since he got up this morning (after being up every hour last night). He won't sleep for more than 20 minutes today and he's exhausted. He's is screaming for the boob to comfort nurse but when I offer it to him, he refuses and screams even harder. I have a bad headache from it. I just screamed back at him "WHAT THE F***?!?!" and shoved him in the swing. I don't say that word, esp. to my kids, esp. to my newborn!!! Sigh. DH and DS1 have been gone all day so I didn't have to take care of my 3yo, but I also haven't had any help.

[jenfl]

Originally Posted by dhinderliter

hugs jen and jess. i guess 6 weeks things turn around but then they also seem to have taken it to a harder level for a lot of things.

I think the thing is, after 6 weeks, you start to see what things AREN'T going to turn around. Up until then, you can tell yourself that it's going to get better any time now.

silverspook.

[jsh7809]

Originally Posted by jenfl

Jess -- I'm so happy that you've gotten help. Like I said, I regret not taking that step with my first. It's worth trying -- if it's not helping, you can stop. But it might make things so much better.

Today, I did some thing I've never done in over 3 years of parenting. I put Sprout in the crib, choked out to DH that I needed a break, and closed myself in the bathroom to cry.

I hate breastfeeding. I probably would have stopped today, if Sprout was taking a bottle. He's once again losing his latch every suck. I'm beginning to think it won't get better.

Gotta go do the nighttime routine solo with an over-tired, screaming baby.

Oh, Jen, I'm so sorry! It makes me want to cry for you to read that... UGH. Is there anyone new in your area you can ask for help from?

Thanks for your support. That hit me today - as much as I want to avoid these drugs for both myself and for the baby, if I try them and don't like them, I can stop at any time. If I don't try them and don't feel better, well, it's much more likely I will regret NOT getting help than getting help.
UGH. Why can't everything just make sense and work?! Stupid human bodies and brains sometimes...

I have to go get ready to do a photo shoot, it's over 90 degrees, DH is going to have his first solo time with the baby for a few hours, and I took a half hour nap which led me to wake up confused and having (momentarily) forgotten that I have a baby to take care of and am sad. Her cries brought me crashing down to reality

[snoopy5386]

so I am sick with who knows what?? Last night my muscles and joints started to ache really bad, continued this morning and today and now I have a fever too. Otherwise I feel fine?? I've got no idea what is wrong with me - my only thought is Lyme disease which should be oh so fun. DD1 had it last june the same week we were supposed to go on vacation. We are supposed to go on vacation on Monday.....I'll be going to the doc Monday morning.

[rhiOrion]

so i just made some dairy free caramel sauce and poured it over some diced apple and topped it with crushed graham cracker. mmmmmmmmmmmmmm

[Elecampane]

Originally Posted by snoopy5386

so I am sick with who knows what?? Last night my muscles and joints started to ache really bad, continued this morning and today and now I have a fever too. Otherwise I feel fine?? I've got no idea what is wrong with me - my only thought is Lyme disease which should be oh so fun. DD1 had it last june the same week we were supposed to go on vacation. We are supposed to go on vacation on Monday.....I'll be going to the doc Monday morning.

I had very similar symptoms last week and it turned out to be mastitis. My breast didn't hurt at all that first day. I thought I had the flu. It was terrible. Hope you feel better soon!

Hugs to all of you having a hard time. I just wanted to put in a plug for the antidepressants. I actually have been taking zoloft since mid-pregnancy and I am certain if I were not I'd be a wreck right now. In fact ppd has been peeking through and I think I will ask about increasing my dosage when I have my last followup next week.

I baked for the first time in months today! I made chocolate chip blondies since I didn't have any cocoa powder.

[snoopy5386]

Originally Posted by Elecampane

I had very similar symptoms last week and it turned out to be mastitis. My breast didn't hurt at all that first day. I thought I had the flu. It was terrible. Hope you feel better soon!

Hugs to all of you having a hard time. I just wanted to put in a plug for the antidepressants. I actually have been taking zoloft since mid-pregnancy and I am certain if I were not I'd be a wreck right now. In fact ppd has been peeking through and I think I will ask about increasing my dosage when I have my last followup next week.

I baked for the first time in months today! I made chocolate chip blondies since I didn't have any cocoa powder.

I'm actually hoping for mastitis, how sad is that? The least scary, most easily treatable thing though. No breast pain so far though.....I've finally seemed to have stopped sweating like a pig and my fever is down for now thanks to ibuprofen, so we'll see what happens tonight and tomorrow

[jsh7809]

I'd take mastitis over lyme any day! Hoping it resolves quickly and easily.

Thanks for your input on Zoloft, I'm hoping to start on that (or something else if my dr recommends that more) on Monday or Tuesday. I had a brighter evening, after photographing an amazingly sweet elopement - but the day was hard. And I'm realizing more and more that at 8 weeks out, I STILL just feel like I'm surviving each day, not enjoying them. I have a lot of guilt about not being able to enjoy the baby as much as I wanted/ thought - for example, I always envisioned dancing her around and singing to her lots - and I can count on one hand the number of songs we've even listened to together. Not that anti depressants will fix everything, but I know from experience that they'll give me perspective and breathing room, if done right.

I do worry about the breastfeeding... sounds like Zoloft gets in the milk the least.

It's scorching hot here today AND there's a huge music festival at the fairgrounds 2 blocks from our house. Too hot to swaddle the baby (even at 9pm, even with the fan pointed on her) so she is wiggling around in her crib in just a diaper. She's awake but not unhappy, just chatting, but I feel kinda bad as I know she's exhausted and that she has a really, really hard time calming down enough to sleep without her arms and legs swaddled. I kinda can't wait till she grows out of that!