I have been wrestling with something lately that I'm hoping I can get some input on. I am a Jesus follower. I feel strong in my faith as a Christian.
I'm not wavering on that aspect of it.
I am however trying to understand how my *possible* psychic intuition fits into my faith.
A little backstory: I have always been "sensitive". I feel extreme empathy for people. I've always felt that I was "different" in some way but couldn't really put my finger on it. I have a deep connection with my grandpa who died before my parents were even married. I visited his grave one time with my parents and found myself crying while I was there and getting chills. I had no reason to feel this way as I never heard my dad hardly mention him. Since then (that was when I was 14), I've felt connected to him. When my oldest daughter was born, I wanted to name her Lauren Olivia. I liked the name. I later found out that my grandpa's name was Laurence Oliver (spelled Laurence). Then when my grandma was dying (she was my grandpa's wife), I felt pushed (almost an out of body experience) to keep telling my family that grandpa wants us to pull the plug. He told me it was time for her to go home. Now I never "heard" his voice. I didn't see an apparition or anything close to that. I just can "feel" it (for lack of a better term).
The other thing is, after a few friends of the family died (over several years), I would dream about them within a few days and in my dream they would tell me (I could see them) to tell their spouse/family that they were ok. I have always sort of played that off as maybe I was reading too much into it. Maybe it's all a coincidence. Maybe I'm convincing myself that I have some sort of intuition or psychic ability that I really don't.
Ok, well fast forward to present. I have been seeing this therapist (she actually comes for my son to help him deal with adoption issues). Well she shared with me that she is psychic. She has explained that there are different types of "psychic" and that it's not all about reading futures, etc. However, since I've been seeing her and have been working on other issues (anxiety/etc), I've started to feel almost confused. I am starting to "feel" things about people. For instance, I was getting a coffee the other day at Starbucks and when I saw a familiar barista, I got an overwhelming feeling that they were going to get sick (just with a cold or something). Well sure enough the next day they told me that two of their baristas called out sick. (I never told them I thought they were going to get sick...I've just been having some odd "premonitions" if you will). Sometimes I'm off and I think it's my anxiety kicking in...or maybe it's my OCD tendencies. I don't know what it is. I'm praying about it but I'm confused. Is this real? Am I going insane? LOL I honestly don't know what to think.
I know some Christians will say that any sort of psychic ability comes from a dark place or satan or whatever. I don't believe that. I think like anything, people can turn a positive into a negative or a gift into sin (however you look at it) but I just don't know if I'm reading too much into myself lately.
Anyway...thanks for reading if you've gotten through it
I'm not wavering on that aspect of it.
I am however trying to understand how my *possible* psychic intuition fits into my faith.
A little backstory: I have always been "sensitive". I feel extreme empathy for people. I've always felt that I was "different" in some way but couldn't really put my finger on it. I have a deep connection with my grandpa who died before my parents were even married. I visited his grave one time with my parents and found myself crying while I was there and getting chills. I had no reason to feel this way as I never heard my dad hardly mention him. Since then (that was when I was 14), I've felt connected to him. When my oldest daughter was born, I wanted to name her Lauren Olivia. I liked the name. I later found out that my grandpa's name was Laurence Oliver (spelled Laurence). Then when my grandma was dying (she was my grandpa's wife), I felt pushed (almost an out of body experience) to keep telling my family that grandpa wants us to pull the plug. He told me it was time for her to go home. Now I never "heard" his voice. I didn't see an apparition or anything close to that. I just can "feel" it (for lack of a better term).
The other thing is, after a few friends of the family died (over several years), I would dream about them within a few days and in my dream they would tell me (I could see them) to tell their spouse/family that they were ok. I have always sort of played that off as maybe I was reading too much into it. Maybe it's all a coincidence. Maybe I'm convincing myself that I have some sort of intuition or psychic ability that I really don't.
Ok, well fast forward to present. I have been seeing this therapist (she actually comes for my son to help him deal with adoption issues). Well she shared with me that she is psychic. She has explained that there are different types of "psychic" and that it's not all about reading futures, etc. However, since I've been seeing her and have been working on other issues (anxiety/etc), I've started to feel almost confused. I am starting to "feel" things about people. For instance, I was getting a coffee the other day at Starbucks and when I saw a familiar barista, I got an overwhelming feeling that they were going to get sick (just with a cold or something). Well sure enough the next day they told me that two of their baristas called out sick. (I never told them I thought they were going to get sick...I've just been having some odd "premonitions" if you will). Sometimes I'm off and I think it's my anxiety kicking in...or maybe it's my OCD tendencies. I don't know what it is. I'm praying about it but I'm confused. Is this real? Am I going insane? LOL I honestly don't know what to think.
I know some Christians will say that any sort of psychic ability comes from a dark place or satan or whatever. I don't believe that. I think like anything, people can turn a positive into a negative or a gift into sin (however you look at it) but I just don't know if I'm reading too much into myself lately.
Anyway...thanks for reading if you've gotten through it





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, as I believe that we all have the ability to sense things, and as the time will go on, people will learn to accept this "sixth" sense, and maybe even will learn how to develop it from early on. 

It's certainly a way in which Satan could attempt to give you theologically dodgy views on the afterlife or whatever.



) But I do know that above all else, what's important to me is pleasing God and making sure that I'm living my life in a way that models Jesus.

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